When God Ran (Song Lyrics)

Almighty God, the great I am
Immovable rock,omnipotent,powerful awesome Lord
Victorious Warrior, commanding King of Kings
Mighty Conqueror, and the only time
The only time I ever saw Him run

Was when He ran to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest
Said "My son's come home again"
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice
He said"Son,do you know I still love you?"
He caught me by surprise, when God ran

The day I left home I knew I'd broken His heart
And I wondered then if things could ever be the same
Then one night I remembered His love for me
And down that dusty road ahead I could see
It was the only time
It was the only time I ever saw Him run

And then He ran to me, took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest
Said, "My son's come home again"
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice
He said,"Son,do you know I still love you?"
He caught me by surprise and brought me to my knees
When God ran, I saw Him run to me.

I was so ashamed, all alone and so far away
But now I know He's been waiting for this day

I saw Him run to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest
And said," My son's come home again"
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice I felt His love for me again
He ran to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest
Said," My son's come home again"
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice
He said, "Son"
He called me Son
He said ,"Son do you know I still love you?"
He ran to me
And then I ran to Him
When God ran

Bothered with Comfort

Lord, I came to you stripped, bare and naked
You took me, held me tight as you revealed yourself to me
You clothed me, and blessed me as you took me home
And now that i have felt your touch, felt your presence
I no longer know what to do with these things they call important
Take me back home, to the place where you dwell...

Lost Sight, Gained Vision

Blind me with your beauty,
so that all i will remember will be the last sight i saw,
your glory,
and that i may remain dependent to you.
Take it all father, bring me back to you
Complete the circle, from where everything began
Hold me, Pull me or I'll run towards you
Blind me with your Glory!
So that everything will be lost, but you...

John 9:39 (NIV)
Jesus said "For judgement I have come to this world, so that the blind will see, and those who see will become blind"

Used Hands

Armed with a pen and your whispers
I will liberate those who dwell in darkness
Lost without your guidance
seeking Love, and fighting for the wrong reasons

With your words holding my pen
Onwards we will march towards your promise
And in your name, your light will pierce through them

Aurora Log:

I finally found what was missing in my life. I finally found joy and hapiness in exchange for the gloom and sadness i felt before leaving Manila. I finally saw the place in which i reside in delight.
In love, joy, and unexplainable hapiness. You might find me strange, you might see me different all of a sudden. Paul (once Saul the Roman Commander) was once.

Its amazing just to see when youre stripped of all the stuff you're used to, technology, vices, and just the stuff that keeps you busy to meditate and just search for your soul. Im ready, I give my life to THE POTTERS HANDS.

And in my sleep you renewed my dreams
No longer tormented, no longer in gloom
But living in love and intimacy
With YOU, im new...

W. Dreamer Blog Down til 4/6/2006

Dreamers Log. 2:54 am

This is it. My flight away from the city and to an unchartered land.
See you all on the 6th
Till then, fare thee well...

-Marco aka Wandering Dreamer

Oblivion Rising

Emotions, keeps playing its song
haunting my dreams, where i usually play
where i reside and wandered for so long
hurts me even more when i lay

To God I pray
please take these away
the burdens i carry everyday
since that day when i heared her say

No longer will i see
No longer will i feel
sleep, dream, and soar
this love... what for

Oblivion rising upon me
Lord help me out from this deep dark hole
i want to feel and see again
Why they're happy with this unjust love

"Hello World"

*sigh* this is it... we, graduates, are now officially unemployed. so eager to slack, so eager to just lie down and get back what school took... our moments in our bed hah. How come the thought of finding a job just bewilders me. Should i pursue the career of being a bum for a while? or will i just shoot the moon and go? Decisions, these are the stuff that makes adulthood hard.

I'm going to Aurora tomorrow along with m friends in church to restore Hope to the devastated place. Laugh all you want, but i want to wake up from the comforts of the urban life. I want my eyes to open on whats around, with that maybe, i might see things clearer...
Matt 14:22
Like Peter did, Im getting out of my boat... and you know how the story goes... you know who i am seeking, and who i am going to... with the raging seas and everything, if He says so, so be it.

side note:
6 days without computers, maybe phone (stupid sun), tv, this will be a trial for me hehe wish me luck :P

this is something like a soul searching thing for me
1 week hiatus from the comforts of technology and a bed... lets go!

Graduation Day!

It is within our grasps
the highlight of our youth
a new journey waiting to unfold
story of our flight soon to be told

On that isle we'll march
proudly, as we'll step one foot forward
with our colors as our pride
graduates, to the future, lets ride

And like the first day in our class
the first words we learned will be our last
"Hello World"
here we come...

Congratulations SBCA-CAS Graduates of Batch 2006!!!
Our time has come!

Soundtrack: PNE - Barkada, PNE - Saan Man Patungo, EHeads - Minsan, John Cena - My Time has Come

Barkada Tribute Post #2

After hearing the song i just couldnt let it go away... cheers to the friends that made my College a memorable one... Good Luck, and Have Fun!!!

Laughters that once filled the hall
People that once sat on that place
Missing stuff from their usual places
Are from my friends that will never be replaced

-Minsan-

minsan sa may kalayaan tayo'y nagkatagpuan
may mga sariling gimik at kaya-kanyang hangad sa buhay
sa ilalim ng iisang bubong
mga sekretong ibinubulong
kahit na anong mangyari
kahit na saan ka man patungo
ngunit ngayon kay bilis maglaho ng kahapon
sana'y huwag kalimutan ang ating mga pinagsamahan
at kung sakaling gipitin ay laging iisipin
na minsan tayo ay naging
tunay na magkaibigan
minsan ay parang wala nang bukas sa buhay natin
inuman sa magdamag na para bang tayo'y mauubusan
sa ilalim ng bilog na buwan
mga tiyan nati'y walang laman
ngunit kahit na walang pera
ang bawat gabi'y anong saya
minsan ay hindi ko na alam ang nangyayari
kahit na anong gawin
lahat ng bagay ay merong hangganan
dahil ngayon tayo ay nilimot ng kahapon
di na mapipilitang buhayin ang ating pinagsamahan
ngunit kung sakaling mapadaan baka
ikaw ay aking tawagan
dahil minsan tayo ay naging
tunay na magkaibigan

Barkada

for years we've laughed and tripped
for all the times we've held each other up
for all the pains and troubles we've dealt and endured
for all the times we just did nothing
for the 4 years you just stood there
short as it may be...

nothing will take those memories
thanks...

Barkada

heto na ang mga officials ng barkada
kanya-kanyang kalokohan ang bawat bida
merong medyo praning
meron din ang antukin
kumpleto sa rekado ang barkada namin

pinagtagpotagpo kami ng tadhana
kahit pinanggalingan namin ay iba iba
walang pakialam kung san mapadaan
basta't sabay-sabay kaming nagtatawanan

basta nanjan ang bawat miyembro ng tropa
ang kalokohan ay di mawawala
hindi na dapat pinag iisipan pa
lahat tayo ay dapat magsaya

musmos palang magkakasama na kami
nagkasundo kahit iba't ibang ugali
ganyan lang talaga saming munting barkada
kasakasama mo sa hirap at ginhawa

magkasabay mula sa pagsikat ng araw
magkasama hanggang daigdig ay magunaw
sa dami-dami ng aming napagdaanan
walang tatalo sa aming pinagsamahan

di na yata magsasawa
saming pagsasamasama
at sa aming barkada
asahan ng hindi mawawala
ang kalokohan at ang walang
tigil na tawanan sapagkat
ang bawat kabarkada namin ay sadyang ganyan

Just a Spur

6 billion people in the world,
different and apart,
6 billion different souls,
wandering on its own...

6 billion seems like a lot
but to change everthing
all you need is 1...

The Untitled VII

I couldve locked the door
I couldve ended it all
Took your keys and shut it close
But i just couldnt take what you took

My heart is aching i cant stay
My fists closed as i hit the wall
Im stuck in your presence
In your absence

Messages from the deep is killing me
Too far, i cant run anymore
I'm giving up, laying it all down
Even if it gives me an all day frown

Like the song says, we couldve been more
I just cant take it, I'll never get to be with you
My feelings, I'll bury youre free
No more of this, No remedies

Im shattered, devastated, and battered
Cracked open, bare and naked
I'll leave this empty, clean and raked
We couldve been more...

When will these feelings fly.

An open letter, To the idiots bitching in the street (from email)

An open letter
To the idiots bitching in the street,

Thanks a lot guys! Thank you for clogging up the city's main roads. Thanks for disrupting the country's business capital again. And thank you for fucking up the economy. You should pat yourselves on the back for accomplishing so much today. God knows nobody else accomplished as much today because you upset everybody else's normal everyday lives. And hey, I bet you guys needed something to do. Boredom can really be a bitch.

By the way, good thinking on doing this on a weekday! The people who needed to work today had a sort of day off. I guess you felt they needed that. You know, everyone who got stuck in traffic, and the employees who had to miss a day's pay because you couldn't wait to 'celebrate' EDSA's anniversary on it's proper date, which should have been tomorrow. But hey, we understand that kind of thinking. If you did it tomorrow, on a weekend, no one would really give a shit, would they? So we totally understand that you just had to do it today. You sure pissed a lot of people off! Good job!

I'm trying to imagine how exciting this time must be for you guys. You must have been up all night, trying to think of clever stuff to paint on your signs and placards and banners for your big day tomorrow. Waking up this morning, you guys must have felt like grade-schoolers getting dressed for their school’s foundation day. I really loved one sign I saw on TV, which read, "FIGHT POVERTY!" How clever! How utterly inspired! Imagine, parading around, braving the hot sun, letting everyone know how much you want to alleviate poverty. It’s a bit ironic though -- wanting to fight poverty while disrupting the lives of everybody else in the city who are actually trying to work today. If you think about it, maybe the idea for that slogan ain’t so hot. I just want to know why you’d want to clog the streets with your spectacle, bothering the people who’re really trying to fight poverty by actually working?

You guys must really be bummed because the police cracked down on your little party at EDSA today. They even arrested some of the dudes who wanted to get the party started. I feel ya, dogs. Here’s an alternative: why not hold the party at the big houses of the politicians rallying with you? Those guys are loaded! You should see their big yards and swimming pools. I bet they would even volunteer to take some of y’all on their shiny new SUVs and big, bad-ass Benzes. If only someone came up with that idea. That would be a hell of a party. It sure beats braving the hot sun. On the other hand, maybe being blasted with water from fire trucks is more fun than it looks.

The president pulled another party-pooper again, proclaiming a state of emergency and banning all rallies off the street. That must’ve pissed you guys off even more, right? She’s practically suppressing your rights! But don’t worry guys. There’s a lot of other fun stuff you can still do that’s within your rights. Like drinking gasoline. Or jumping off a bridge. Try it! Let’s see her make a rule banning that! That’ll show her.

I understand the anger. Heck, no one wants to pay higher taxes, right? Who cares about the improving economy because of that anyway? Maybe you guys don’t pay your taxes, so party on! One thing though, after everything’s said and done, she’s still in the palace, the taxes are still in place, but the economy suffered because of all the stunts you all planned. If only you guys could put your act together so everybody would have something to show for it. But maybe that wasn’t your fault. I’m sure you expected more people there with you, since the ex-president’s son kept insisting that 85% of the country is on your side.

What’s up with the police messing up the gathering? Man, that sure ruined everything, right? After all the planning, the hours thinking up the clever little chants, then having everyone memorize the words. They practically negated hours and hours of work! What’re you gonna do with the big banners now? What’s gonna happen to the big paper-mache heads of George Bush and GMA that you all made to burn in front of the news cameras? There goes your 15 minutes of fame.

Oh, well. Cheer up guys, you still accomplished a lot today.
Anyway, there’s always tomorrow. It’s not like you guys have anything better to do, right?

Heaven Knows - Orange and Lemons

There are times when I’m lying in my bed
Hug my pillow and cry from this tip again
And my eyes are like windshields on a rainy day
Almost rubbed down, swelling, as I keep on
Dipping my face in these cold hands of mine
Heaven knows how bitter I am

‘Cause this angel has flown away from me
Leaving me in drunken misery
I should have clipped her wings and made her mine
For all eternity
Now this angel has flown away from me
Thought I had the strength to set her free
Did what I did because I love her so
Will she ever find her way back home to me
Aah…

I’m so tired, I feel like catching forty winks
Being up all night in this elbow room
That puts me in a trance
Where hopes and dreams come true
Now my lips are burning and my eyes are hurting
From this fuse I mixed till I light another
Cigarette just to pass my time, oh
Heaven knows how bitter I am

The Feb 5 Aftermath

Well i didnt get the verdict that i was expectin, but hey, i aint goin to defend anymore. We got Major Revisions, but its all good. Whats done is done, and all i have to do is to revise something and submit and chill...

Anyway thats it. Congratulations to those who passed the defense! PARTY UP!

soundtrack for the day: Snoop Dogg - Gin and Juice ::: The Game - Hate it or Love it

Feb 5. Judgement Day

What could be the verdict on the highlight of all IT graduates tomorrow? i wont lie, i am worried, and im on the verge of shitting myself just having the thought of defending it. Im trying to be calm, but its a fine line between failure and success. I need the BIG MAN's help tomorrow, very very bad.

4 years of college, and it all comes down to this. We're facing a tough panel tomorrow and come what may, its an opportunity so i'll take it.

Pray for me tomorrow, i need it bad.

Soundtrack for the day: Eminem - Lose Yourself ::: R. Kelly - World's Greatest

So Sick (NE-YO)

Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cuz right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cuz you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger then this
(enough is enough)
No more walkin round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Cryin over you

Gotta fix that calender I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
Let it go
Turning off the radio

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Not enough

will i ever find courage
will i ever see my dream
will i ever feel the warmth
of arms around me beside a furnace

dreams foretold
dreams i'll hold
real worlds a mess
everythings just a miss

will i still believe in love
to hope and care?
or just be cold and bare
for i seek the person who's no longer there

i always think its not fair
for all the love i give
i dont even get my share
now tell me whats fair

im enraged, im angered
but love still lingers
with hope, i hold on my dreams
head on my way, its not enough

so i bid farewell to you
dark and cold
twisted and bothered
thats how ill leave
farewell to the light
farewell...

Inspirations that builds our inner self

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

Excerpt from "Coach Carter"

Think about it... let us liberate ourselves, and liberate others... shine! and let others be inspired and do what we do...

when you really digest these words, we ask ourselves are we capable of these things? well he did why cant we? We always look for examples and try to do what he did... so in my own way... we can build ourselves our own utopia... perfect is not impossible... impossible is nothing. Work together and all will be perfect, we as individuals might not be perfect but we as countrymen, brothers under one flag can make it happen. Change is inevitable... HIS favor is upon us...

OUR TIME on 3!

The Wonder of Torrents

Im just having a quick R & R before going back on working with my thesis. And writing about something eventhough you guys already know about it is relaxing and gets my mind working.

Anyway, what is a torrent? It's way of getting your stuff from the internet through P2P (peer-2-peer networking) aside from your Kazaa, Bearshare, E-Mule or Limewire. It does the same thing, gives you stuff for free. May it be music, games, movies or utilities. The only difference between P2P softwares and torrents is that torrents gives you the whole package. Its archived for you to download everything in one click.

In softwares like Limewire, you search for a particular song, and you download them one by one, torrent softwares can provide you a .torrent of a whole album (if you like all of the songs in that album). Another advantage between a torrent and using P2P softwares like limewire (alright ill just call it P2P softwares) is that you can check the comments made by a person who already has the file, since you have to pass through a site (ex. Torrentspy or TorrentBox) before downloading torrents.

And in a nutshell, torrents can give you the whole package. Just like having the whole cd ripped for 4 or more hours (depends on the filesize and your download speed).

Thats all, :D

Ultraelectromagneticjam - The music of the Eraserheads

Hindi mapakali, magdamag hinahanap... thats music for me, I cant live without my earphones plugged on my ears. We listen to it while we walk, we do homeworks, while travelling, or while taking a crap. And whats amazing about music, is we leave it for 10 or more years and it comes back to you bringing your past memories while listening to them. You talk about it with people among your age bracket. When you hear songs like "Ang Huling El Bimbo" you just suddenly talk about it with them. How about a whole new tribute album for the band that brought music to my childhood days? A tribute to the music of the Eraserheads who gave us a whole new meaning of what OPM is back in the 90's. The band that opened our ears with their lines "Di ba T*ng Ina!" is definitley worth the tribute, and the 300Php that I exchanged for this bliss.

10 or so years ago, we begin to brag about our walkman and no walkman is found without Ultraelectromagneticpop, Circus, or Cutterpillow plugged in it.

Now that we have our iPod's and W800i's, it brings back the days where we walk hand in hand with our old portable casette players, to the digitalized colorful "chuva" we call mp3 players, and still with our favorite Eraserheads songs, sung by today's OPM kings and Queens.

When I bought the album, i was kinda disappointed not to find 2 of my oldtime favorite E-heads songs, "Waiting for the Bus, and Poorman's Grave) but finding almost all of their hits in it.

I like almost all of it but to mention some of the tracks, i like South Border's version of With a Smile (although the original is still better, but its a new sound of the already good song), Orange and Lemon's Huwag kang Matakot semi-medly (with riffs of Julie Tearjerky and background singing of Tikman's chrous). Of course Imago's Spoliarium revision is on my top ranking among the favorites. Francis M's Super Proxy 2k6 brings back the heavy tunes and of this song with a much harder strum (hooray for distortions). And the soothing voice of Juris of MYMP reinvented another Cutterpilow hit "Huwag Mo nang Itanong" adding a relaxing acoustic and piano tunes to it. Of course Radioactive Sago Project will never be left out of my list, their smashing jazzy chuva tunes rendered into Alcohol. Sugarfree and Rico J. Puno wraps up the favorites with their cover of Tikman (a song written for Burger Machine commercial) and Ang Huling El Bimbo.

Other tracks that are included are the following:

Magasin (Paolo Santos)
Overdrive (Barbie Almalbis)
Ligaya (Kitchie Nadal)
Pare Ko (Spongecola)
Hard To Believe (Cueshe)
Maling Akala (Brownman Revival)
Para Sa Masa (Various Artists)

Memoirs of the Wandering Dreamer: To the real world

Yesterday we had our Job Fair at our school. Several companies visited to check out the merchandise San Beda Alabang is offering, yes we we're put on display.

Companies tried to entice us with their benefits and everything, the company that really caught my attention was Chinabank. They have an IT dept, and the presentation was well said and really caught the students attention, they have good stuff to offer the employees. Too bad i was too lazy to apply there. Accenture was one of my targets since... it is Accenture, some say its the Mecca for IT Grads here in the Phils. But then again, if i get an offer at GIS (top of my list) id get that rather than Accenture, if i get in. Hapiness is a weapon for working hard... cmon if youre not happy? why work? and Hapiness is found at the former company since they do offer a good environment and a whole new world to venture in.

Enough about that... so back to the present times. Preparation for this real world we youngens are excited to step in, and the veterans so keen to get out. Im wondering... why?? You work for your livelihood, youre independent and youre just out and about yourself... Why are they so keen to get out? Its for them to know and for me to find out... well... i hope im ready... if im not? i will be soon.

Brighter Side:
RP is leading the medal tally in the SEA Games... Hooray!
RP Booters won against Cambodia and hopefully Malaysia (no news bout that yet)
Peso Rises to 53 to-a 1$

Darker Side:
Itll drive you nuts... better left alone haha stay on the light side

Rant of the Week: Doom

"Learn from your mistakes" is indeed true, after watching doom? i learned that i shouldve listened to the 19% rating from RT.com.



The title speaks for itself, it truly is... DOOM!... i couldve enjoyed an hour and a half playing the game all over again for free, instead of paying 100 bucks just to sit my ass down and watch the famed game from our time bastardized. Whats next? Scorched Earth the movie?

Loving the violent game from our childhood made our parents crazy about what we are doing in the computer for more than 5 hours... yes we're playing with evil all right, and we dont know evil until we see it. Evil is reading Rock's mouth say "shit" but hearing "smokes"? and how about watching the first person thing they did with the movie but with the mouse sensitivity of 15!. How about watching the movie skip scenes and just see some monster dropping with an axe on his head.
How about just giving me back the hour i spent? I couldve spent that 100 for four hours on a pc shop. sheesh...

Ok, ok... lets find something to praise about the movie? Remember that Big F*cking Gun we used in Quake and Doom? yes its also there, the BFG... Bio Force Gun or Big "Friggin" Gun (I read something else from Rock's mouth). The BFG was really BIG and bad looking, so bad it killed walls instead of monsters... Whats the use of that gun then?

The Action? Well its full of it, shit that is... I dont like watching a movie with my eyes always looking for people roaming in the dark... 2 reasons, I dont like hands just appearing from nowhere and I dont like looking for them on the big screen, FYI the humans invented light waaaay waaaaay back in the day... And they have this thing called a switch to turn them on.

Bottom Line: The movie didnt really deserve the 19% rating they got from RT. If it wasnt for the reminiscing of the game, and the chick who didnt know how to wear a bra on mars? It couldve recieved a Rock Bottom from the most electrifying soldier, Sarge...

Almost There

First of all, I would like to extend my congratulations to the October graduates! Cheers! You guys deserve it.

Now for me, it just recently got into me that im about to finish my tenure at San Beda College Alabang (Formerly known as Benedictine Abbey School, and St. Benedict College). After a decade and more, im nearly done. 14 years... thats so long and I'm not planning to extend that, no sir.

Recap, 1st sem of my final year is almost done, ive done pretty good in all of my class standings, finished Thesis 1 without any troubles what-so-ever. Took our graduation pictures, and Year Book write ups. Dont worry ill post them once i get my hands on them i know you guys want me to see in that toga, unfortunately its very fab... we're going to wear a red toga... yeah i know.

Took a look at my final 24 units for next sem, and its pretty much a walk on the park from there. I still cant believe that im almost there. The finish line, right here in front of me. I just have to run a little more, until February that is... and from there, its pretty much the Graduation Practice we all love to ruin heh. Once again, Cheers, until then, we wont smoke it until the fat lady sings... come March? lets all get wasted! we all deserve it! 6 months...

We were once kids
playing along in the streets we lived
Were still kids
playing along our lives we will live

We never thought of this before
we all wanted to be an astronaut
I did, but where am I
We could never know what we want
Unless we explore

We can only take this once
One slip and we're all done
One sip, and we're through
Little by little, we'll shit what we chewed

Proud to be in red
proud to bleed red
Right here, right now...
Its our future in our hands

Good luck everyone
Just a little more to endure
have fun during the run...
Good luck, Were almost done.

Runabout Miseries

I have always thought im alright
I have always thought im strong
tight, bright and always right
somehow i contradict myself, im wrong

im happy, yet im sad
im strong, yet im weak
so soon this feelings will turn bad
but still its happiness we seek

i do have my own principles
i do have my beliefs
torn by my own bristles
im shattered drowning in this reef

im seeking help, pull me away
its dark, it freezes
its not until today
i realized im back with my old miseries.

i miss you...

Gutted and Disgusted: Real Madrid

We can blame anyone after a loss. But can we be that any worse? From a prominent figure in European Football to the worlds current laughing stock? From the team to beat now the team that's beat?

What happened to our wonderful games from the day of Di Stefano and Puskas? What happened to the only team that held a unique European CL Cup? Why are we held down to 29 European cups and 9 domestic cups? What is happening to "The" Real Madrid?

Some people blame it on managerial errors, some on our so-called Galacticos, and lately some blame it on the referees.

We do have some managerial problems since our President focuses more on gaining income than winning. Real Madrid also sacks and buys coaches like changing our underwear. Selling one of our best strikers for an unproven one is still baffling. And playing 5 new players simultaneously on the field just doesnt do the trick.

Our so-called Galacticos are aging, and simple as that, it creates problems on our lineup. We rely on them game in and game out, and given that theyre 30 years old and more just adds insult to the injury. Zidane is missing when our midfielders are running like headless chickens. He along with Baptista, Ramos, and maybe Helguerra will miss the next match against Bilbao due to injuries and suspensions. What happens to our defense now? Are we going to go with Paco Pavon and Mejia or should we play our ever priceless Jonathan Woodgate.

The referee, well its pretty self-explanatory. Theyre screwing us 3 ways till Sunday. Calling a foul and then counting a goal. Giving a point when the ball obviously never passed behind the line. And finally disallowing a goal when its clearly not offside.

We have lost 3-2 against Celta, 3-0 against Lyon, and 1-0 against Espanyol. What should we expect on the Bilbao match since we're clearly depleted and shorthanded. Who will step up? Will anyone step up, and rise for the occasion? Will we ever get our 30th and our 10th? Will Luxa stay and live up to his promise that he'll win all competitions?

So many questions are being asked here, its still the start, and its still a long way to go. The season has just began and we just woke up in the bad side of the bed. I myself still believes that everything will be alright and like a great Madridista once said. "Even if were in the segunda, i'll still bleed white"

Songs that plays along my head

Isnt it disdainful and curious
That both of us thinks we know everything

We both have pains
we both have eyes
One in the same
Two of a kind
and Neither of us cant see

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Is that the way we stand
Were you lying all the time
Was it just a game to you

But I’m in so deep
You know I’m such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger

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Sometimes I can’t move my feet it seems
As if I’m stuck in the ground somehow like a tree
As if I can’t even breathe
Oh, and my screams come whispering out

As if nobody can even see me
Like a ghost, sometimes I can’t see myself
Sometimes, then again, oh

If I were a king
If I had everything
If I had you and I could give you your dreams
If I were giant-sized, on top of it all
Then tell me what in the world would I sing for
If I had it all

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Here in your arms where the world is impossibly still
With a million dreams to fulfill
And a matter of moments until the dancing ends
Here in your arms when everything seems to be clear
Not a solitary thing would I fear
Except when this moment comes near the dancing's end

Dave Matthews - Oh

The world is blowing up
The world is caving in
The world has lost her way again
But you are here with me
But you are here with me
Makes it ok

I hear you still talk to me
As if you're sitting in that dusty chair
Makes the hours easier to bear
I know despite the years alone
I'll always listen to you sing your sweet song
And if it's all the same to you

I love you oh so well
Like a kid loves candy and fresh snow
I love you oh so well
Enough to fill up heaven overflow and fill hell
Love you oh so well

And it's cold and darkness falls
It's as if you're in the next room so alive
I could swear I hear you singing to me

I love you oh so well
Like a kid loves candy and fresh snow
I love you oh so well
Enough to fill up heaven overflow and fill hell

The world is blowing up
The world is caving in
The world has lost her way again
But you are here with me
But you are here with me
Makes it ok

Oh girl you're singing to me still
I love you oh so well
Like a kid loves candy and fresh snow
I love you oh so well
Enough to fill up heaven overflow and fill hell
Love you oh so well

The Untitled VI

i played until the time was done
i lived until my days are gone
no regrets to be felt since everything was done
eventhough by this time you're gone

i chose not to be affected
i chose not to succumb to my feelings
i chose to wear this mask
to fathom my remaining pride

hapiness in avoiding certain songs
joy in avoiding certain sights
but lies ran through my veins
i just cant help that im not there with you

i wont let go...
thats my heart speaking
i should let go...
so says my brain...

im weak, dont speak
let this be the end of it...

Wandering Dreamer blog version 2

Ok im done with my little matrix thingy, its too common, its time for a fresh new something without any copyright infringement what-so-ever...

its a little dirty and comments and suggestions will gladly be appreciated.

Sorry, See you soon...

i might lose track and give up
for aspiring two things will never take its toll
tackling one road at a time is smart
and chasing two different things is foolish
consider me as a fool for not taking the chance
because losing both will is mere stupidity
and winning what weighs more shows a wiser person

for things that are not needed is not to be sought
coward i am for not dipping in the water
for i still have my boat to fix for refuge

an unstabalized person will never stand on their own two feet
and the otherwise though losing a battle will stand up in two feet
we have to give-up some things to grow individually

and whats lost is not our purpose
whats present and in an optimistic view will have hope
wisdom should be embraced first for us not to falter
because it is written that trials will always come and our faith should not be shaken
strengthen your foundation
take heed and dont be decieved
do what you feel is right for the good man wont cause any hurt
nor feel fear
i salute you brother, be happy
and bless others with hapiness.
dont pity for i am happy myself in my own way
its difficult in my situation to see the other road
for left is different from right
and east and west are in two different worlds
the other one is crowded, and im left alone

to say this is sad indeed, but take time to understand
it is needed for us to grow
and to prove our commitment
sometimes, we should sacrifice what we love

i didnt take your ride for im still in one, my own
and if did wrong, caused hurt and despair
then consider this as my attempt for apology
im sorry,
i loved, i took my road
i falter, and experienced pain

chances should be taken not refused like the coward and weak.
but as a man of purpose i will follow suit to seek what is layed down on me

and if all is said and done
if the door is not locked... i will knock

Excerpt from W.H. Auden's "September First, 1939"

All I have is a voice
To undo the folded lie,
The romantic lie in the brain
Of the sensual man-in-the-street
And the lie of Authority
Whose buildings grope the sky:
There is no such thing as the State
And no one exists alone;
Hunger allows no choice
To the citizen or the police;
We must love one another or die.

-W.H. Auden-

I first heard this while watching "Tuesdays with Morrie",
and to tell you what is it about and how Morrie related the line to us.

This is not a direct quote but its a little something like this.

As an infant we depend on our parents to live.
As an old person we depend on others to live.
And we think that in the middle we're independent
and we dont need dependence. Here's a little secret,
thats the time we need it more.

At first it was quite confusing, but here's how i look at it.
During those days, we tend to try some things, we tend to look out
for ourselves, all we think is ourselves. But little did we know of,
we need other's touch like our parents did when they carried us
upon our shoulders during our younger days. We still need others to
live, hence "We must love one another or die".

We should look out for each other. We must serve as a guide, we might
fall down along the way, then we relate them to those who hasnt yet.
Accept the mistakes and guide those who haven't made it yet. Let no one
suffer the same suffering that we did.

"All I have is a voice, to undo the folded lie".
For we are just an individual in this
huge world we live in. But if we all just hush and listen to
those who share and talk with that little voice. And maybe just maybe
we can have the change that we ask for.

This is just something out from my mind. A screaming though if i may add.

Interview with the Dreamer

These questions came from John aka Monty. To play the game, follow the instructions at the end of this post.

1. Paris Hilton was recently quoted as saying that she thinks those people who approach and ask to take pictures with her are losers. What are your thoughts on this? Does she fall under your category of hot women?

I don’t know if its just me, but she doesn't interest me at all... that’s what I hate about her, I don’t know if she's just stupid or just blonde?

She won’t even pass to me as hot even if you put two buns over her and put her in a toaster... simple as...

2. Share to us the dumbest thing you ever did in high-school. Better if you got in trouble for it.

Well, I think writing something on the chair while the prefect was passing by the corridors... coincidence? I guess not! I got suspended for a week for that damn thing... and here's the dumbest alibi... "Sir I was just trying to explain a math problem to my seatmate..."... ON AN ARM CHAIR!!!!... That’s why the papyrus paper was innovated... oh well...

3. Are you a person who’s willing to hook up with a hot, sexy older woman? Is it going to be just a physical thing or would you allow yourself to fall in love?

wow... this is deep man... very well... I think just a hook up if she's up to it hahaha... or if she's willing to give me a Porsche then why not (blind item... I know you guys know this local celebrity... hers a clue... big tits and annoying)... but falling in love is different... man you have to put up on everything she does... plus she's older... that would mean... ANOTHER MOTHER man... all the nagging and the nagging and the nagging I have to put up to everyday... (John I know you're feelin me on this one)... that would just suck, but then again... show me the Porsche...

4. Did you believe the things that were said on The Da Vinci Code? Why do you say so?

Ahhh... a question on my faith... well the book was good, fiction yet it seemed like it was based on facts... if it was something like the National Treasure then why not I might go to France and dig up under the Louvre...

It was just fiction man; I'm not a kid anymore that believes that the Ninja Turtles exist...

5. What do you think is it about gangster movies like Scarface, or The Godfather, or even Lock, Stock that guys love to watch even though most of the characters there are obviously evil and corrupt?

It’s the take no shit from anyone attitude that we aspire... For me it’s simply entertainment... and for me to feel macho and say... "Yeah I’ve seen that... ASTIG NO??" plus it arms us with quotations like "Say hello to my little friend"... Lock stock and two smoking barrels is different... I got it out of curiosity and I heard it was funny so there...

The Godfather is different... if we look deeper into its message aside from the killing and cursing, it still has a message about family ties man (TY to Red for telling me about the message)...

Scarface is out of curiosity too, and yes... it did answer my question that it is possibly the movie that holds the record of saying the F-Word the most...

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2. I will respond by asking you five questions - each person’s will be different.
3. You will update your journal/blog with the answers to the questions.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview others in the same post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

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Lost in your absence

singing songs of sadness and regrets
slow meloies shows my melancholy
lonliness together with gloom
how will i ever be fit to bloom
somehow my heart aches to its doom
alone hurting in my room
my feelings guided my hand to write again
days passed by since i last scribbled
somehow words dont fit my emotions
it all began when it ended
my last glimpse of you within my arms
my last sight of your smile towards mine
the hapiness we shared
the joy you gave me
somehow made me feel im wanted
like the flower needed your light
but since you're gone
im back to where i was
im once again lost...
in the absence of my sun...

Here Tonight - Hale

Note: "Recently i just cant find the right words to write, good thing these guys did. It seems that they took the words out of my heart heh. Anyway, here it is, the lyrics of the song Here Tonight by Hale"

So long to you my love
Don't be afraid to run away
I know you'll be okay
Just take your time to find

But i need you here tonight
I need you here inside
I need you here tonight
I really, really need you here tonight

Made up my mind on this
Too late for me to hold you back
Maybe too short or dumb
To cry for you but i will anyway

It's all my fault
To feel this way for you that day
I know i am and i will
Though it's wrong, so wrong

Cause i need you here tonight
I need you here inside
I need you here tonight
I really, really need you here

I need you, i need you
I need you here inside
I need you i need you
I really, really need you

Took a time off...

Sorry for the late updates for ive been busy with my new blog... Radix Lecti its a blog wherein me and some of my friends lays down our 2 cents on movies, series, music, maybe games as soon as we get new consoles...

feel free to visit and drop something in the chip bowl...

Good Times!

Voided

an empty space once more
alone again in this gloomy pour
inch by inch i feel it sore...
couldve stayed, shouldve told you more

i dont know if it was the same with you
for all i know, i left without a clue
i felt regret, i shouldve stayed true
and now im blue, i shouldve told you

and now im troubled, i cant be at peace
for my mind it calls out to you, it wont cease
im tired, im breaking, im on my knees
emotions wont leave, im down and begging... please

for i am left but an empty space
voided and blank, im out of the race
out of place, now and then i cant keep pace
im without you...
im voided...
blank...
alone...
in this oblivious place...

You

pain still lingers
in my heart it clots
it aches, it shivers

i thought its gone
in my system, it clogs
my fight goes on

i want you back
since your gone
hope fades to black

i miss you so bad
it kills me, i turn to a wreck
i wish the time was longer
on those days,
that its you i had

Melancholic Recurrence

thunders clash, showers starts
no visibility in this hard rain
lightning flares my gloomy sky
no one beside,
no hand on mine,
no stars to guide,
still and alone on my storm
and like this i still fight the norm
cant sleep to dream...
still darkness, no sight of gleams...
more and more it starts to scare...
these ghosts haunting, lonliness isnt fair...
sleep no more dream no more, hence...
stop these melancholic recurrence...

The Untitled IV

just when a day hits rock bottom
a call answered added to my sorrow
a smile today, is pain tomorrow
for all i know heart aches will follow

alone by myself, im not scared
alone by myself, i lived and dared
while with you, pride stripped and bared
cruelty you formed, in my head it flared

i gave what you took
i wish to close this book
you want me back, you want me shook
i cant even give you a decent look

now a sudden rush to my head
anger that built, this submerged guilt...

Dying Mem'ries

a haunting mask
leads to this daunting task
take me away from this dark sack

they say past is past
it feels like it wont last
why cant i send it away so fast

the moments i seek
in my memories it leaks
in teary forms, sadness it wreaks

forever you'll stay
that im sure, ill say
forever heartbreaks and tears...
in here, i'll pay...

Senseless Poetics

Stay a while and listen
hear me, share my bleeding
tired and troubled, im spent
stay high and smile, i cant

previously these days are fun
real world im back,
im down, feels like a ton
get up, no... ill hit the sack

groan and weep, ill try to sleep
heavy eyed and sick, energy is leaked
adiós mi amigo, adiós para ahora
arreglo enfermo mismo, tan pronto como despierte

Politically Incorrect

my brain seems to be an empty mass
blank and vast, where knowledge was...
fierce and mad, the world became
people dont see it, theyre blind and lame
feel it free, the winds of change
one by one they falter, said the evil sage
opposite i stand, i run counterflow
while others agree, to the venerate they bow
what they fought now lost in time
see we're still captive, we've done them crime
where is it now, that we boast freely
independence lost, caused by the greedy
speak up, stand up, clench your fists
take out the chains off our wrists
captivated mother, send out your children
dont let rain ruin the fire of my brethren
cry out loud, rushing blood and sweat
and let them hear, make them lose their bet
hide it now, tears are fears
we will run trembling, scourging their ears
im not afraid, in their hearts i'll wreak
wont break it, but shake it, make it freak...
station, ill stay and write free
but ill fight the wind, lose and gain, like a tree...

Time

Oh how im willing to waste
this life i am living for another
how i search for that taste
the score thats far away brother

a toddler, once i was
loved, and hugged i once had...
attention now i seek
take a look, i aint that bad

sanity once i lost i now hold
now i step up, brave and bold
stripped off my pride, alone in cold
if i had a child, these were told...

i lurk in depths of darkness i believe
i hide not to seek, but to chill
the smile in my face, that now i peel
shame and regret, lately i feel

why did i leave, why give up?
i never had the chance to try and pick up
now it just rings, please answer
time now wasted, now passed...
time...
which i wish, i had...

And This Two Shall Pass

two souls drawn out from a far
both the same, and w/ broken hearts
two souls from different worlds apart
both combined under one wishing star

different souls, different characters
she might be his answer, his next chapter
different souls who shares joy and laughter
both the same, dreaming for ever after

different signs, different lines
both hits the spot, each other likes
one is a dreamer thats still in his flight
the other one is grounded, still willing to fight

this may come out of the blue
but the two shares something, no need for clues
dont blame him if he falls for you
like she said, she always gives them the cue

and if he ever do fall in love
hopefully she considers what he said above
and if he's wrong about this love
he promises to flee, flee peacefully like a dove

for i know he wont take it too fast
because i know he wants it to last
and if the two of them gets a chance
i'll tell you that this two shall pass...

Great Escape

green pastuers and flower beds
on a day so fine, i could rest my head
calm, and tranquil in this land of mine
sit down and relax, come drink my wine

you could be here, and be a boss
you chose not to, very well not my loss
ill stay here, too bad it could be us
not my fault, you made your choice

cool is the breeze that touches my cheeks
on warm and clear waters i rest my feet
so long i asked for this, so long ive waited
and now im near, but i feel ive melted

time and time again, id go here to unwind
lay and relax i start to clear my mind
i dont need you, im fine alone
no longer a dog to fetch your bone

few more weeks, i start to count
more reasons i start to pout
nearing this time i longed
even in soltitude, where i still belong

and like i told you, im not sad
life is so beautiful, no reason to feel bad
and in writing, im smiling like a young lad
just by telling you about this dream i had...

The Untitled III

few roads i took,
back and forth ive looked
so far ive never reached the end to close my book

years and years ive searched
for one love i yearned
and all those calls that i know you never heard

my life is shook
since the day my heart you took
so hard to even give myself a look

with a few more words i wish to send
for i am nothing more, im spent
as i wish that this time you'll listen

i leave with nothing more to say
before i pass out, and lay
i still find time, to wish you a happy valentines day

A Delayed Dedication

for so long i thought i was alone
just realized that with you, i belong
within the dark i start to see
a light coming from beyond, i start to see
a blinding flash eats it all up
and how you helped me stand up
i thought i was the only one hurting
and as i saw your hand
same as mine, all wounded and bleeding
i heard you say dont worry my son, dont worry
i was always there and waiting
i cant help it how you lurk yourself
all the while im the one who keeps on crying
whats wrong my son, whats wrong?
i gave it all up for you, whats wrong?
cry no more, im here now
i felt his touch, ever warm and tender
his love for me, im ashamed, i cannot compare
i wish i could just surrender, i wish
give it all up, like you did
this is a start, i made this for you
and im sorry for a delayed dedication

In The Streets of Cold

Lonely tonight i seek
the love we had i want to seal
steal the moment out from the past
the one that faded too fast

look at me, my love take a look
lonely as i am, give me back what you took
since you left, i never got it back
and along with my heart, i want you back

dont part, lets stay forever
'till the end, darling forever
dont smirk, im sober
when it comes to love, im still a believer

my one and only, please lets marry
be with me, along the time we'll cherish
this life you and i, i will hold
and i tell you, ill stay away from the cold

patient as ever, i'll wait
for how long, i dont know, i'll wait
hand in hand, how i wish we'll hold
to walk together, forever, not alone
in this streets of cold...

Unconsciously

unconsciously a tear dropped, unconsciously
as i hold my head up high i prayed
no more of this, no more pain i plea
found myself in a typical situation, let me flee
more of this ill force myself to bleed

unconsciously i hold my head weeping, unconsciously
secrets known, i wish that was never been told
give me back my pride i wished i hold
shouldve done what i can, shouldve been bold
now im left all alone in the cold

unconsciously, i fell down unconsciously
had my last glimpse of reality before i fell out of consciousness
i had to end it, couldnt handle more of this loneliness
should i pretend to be happy? i choose to go blind
no more of this ill just run away and hide

unconsciously, i cried...
unconsciously, i wept...
unconsciously, i had to end it...
deep down inside...
i had to die...
unconsciously...

Poetic Ramblings #2

Stress... she's a killer
and inch by inch i start to feel her
creeping, leering, she starts to peel
and every moment i start to feel
hear me, i beg you please
do me a favor and put me at ease
i pray that the madness turn into peace
before i start to fall piece by piece
look at them, listen
they say value life
while they sell vice
one by one they start to fall
minute after minute all we can do is stall
we have time my friend
but it is stolen
just like what happened to our brothers that have fallen
hold back brother, dont go with them
let me be the one that remains swollen
close your eyes, close them tight
i fought the fight and lost my right
words are not to be shaken
but the man remains bruised while awakened
sleep, close your eyes dont wake
let me do it until it quakes
until the ground shakes
until the glass breaks
ill do our fight until silence breaks
do your job, reap your rewards
leave it to the minor who is still at guard
oh yes, stress is a killer
the reaper, ill soon feel her
i need more time, but again its stolen
soon ill depart and join the fallen
take over brother, take my post
feel the pain and show it to our host
hold the weapon, then stab it to their hearts
let them know what we are feeling
until they stop the killing
then we will stop chilling
we are now one...

Poetic Ramblings #1

once more i scribble
few more hours before i wake
to dance once with someone else's music
the one i ought to not
but who am i to disrespect
they ought for me to give them one
just a man without a sword
prepared to battle unarmed
the unpassive when supposed to be the opposite
who rides the waves and not to fight
remains standed when everyone else is attacking
remains at ease when all is stiff
they mold me to be unmolded
for once i am awakened
the truth about it all, be educated
i write with my right
but not what they believe is right
i hold only my right
with full might, but to be silenced once more
look at them, i pity them, i pity myself
im the only one shouting when everyone else is silenced
and in my soltitude i find peace
behind my four walls i beg peace
the lover, the dreamer i sleep
but again to be awakened by the cries
the cries of my brothers
your brothers who needs the light
the light in the dark
the fire in the cold
the dreams of the asleep
awake, arise, do your right
stand by me, lets fight...

'Til It Ends

i couldve ended it before
i couldve just left it there
but still it grows
something i could not just share

to you whom i think of most
with you i can boast
i couldnt be a better host
be with me, thats what matter most

if... whats next
a small word with many possible phrases
a possibility, of what might, and not quite
something i couldnt hex

i can give out my all
but i would just end up small
i know what will happen
its not even how i want it to begin

now im just alone
losing what i treasure most
a dream that was once shown
nothing more but a hoax

suffering and still hoping
within my hands i am coping
i cant let it all go
its just i love you so...

i couldve ended it before
left it alone and go
something now i can share
this story of mine i bear

and i'll have to wait...
till it ends...

Dreams...

What are they? they are the things you want to achieve, you want to see, you want to pursue. some of these dreams are things that you couldnt get your hands in to...

Some are nightmares, some are too dreamy to tell... some are weird and unexplainable, but some are still

no matter what they are dreams... mine yours.

and for me... dreams is a moment. a moment that everything that i have ever wanted since i was a child is real.

Definition of Bliss

to hell with this
i dont care what happened to bliss
as i fell down on my knees
i begged and prayed for one last kiss

alone was my verdict for life
stood up and picked up a knife
to hell with this
this is bliss

it wont end till it ends
till one reach that ditch around the bend
a message i refuse to send
the beginning of the end

no man is happy till he's dead
i heard this was once said
to hell with this
this is bliss

Memoirs of the Wandering Dreamer: Reloaded #1

I got stuck with this phrase "The right place, at the right time" and now im wondering when will this time come... or will it ever happen at all? Some say its inevitable, some say its just a saying. For me, everything is the right place at the right time. Again enter this old saying that "Everything happens for a reason".

I'll bring it all back to yesterdays story, yesterday was a good day to let a blog to pass. Yesterday was my official return to the pitch. And knowing myself as a hardcore Real Madrid fan, i was forced to wear my Barcelona jersey, reason? i got nothing else to wear. Anyway, it was a lovely game that ended up with a lot of goals. I can tell that my defense has picked up, although i got tired easily, but i did my best and it was good enough to let the goals pile up for our team. We won the first leg 6-1 and lost the second leg 5-3. To cut the story short i ended up straining my leg muscles. And i felt it just this morning. Back to yesterdays story when we were about to go home, me and my friend decided to hang out in our friends house within our village. We had a healthy "Man talk". Experiences, stories, with some cigarettes. And upon listening to everything we shared, failed relationships, successful relationships, basically our ups and downs. I came back to the phrase "The right place at the right time". Everything that happens is the Right place and the right time. Theres no wrong place, unless you end up getting killed between a gunfight, but its all about Experiences, experiences makes it all right, experiences makes it all fine. Whether you end up sobbing or drinking a beer over it its a lesson learned. Thats why its inevitable, thats why its called fate, its how life goes. A flick of a coin like my friend says, you dont know whether its heads or tails but you know its either of the two. Now i dont know where im going with all this but Real Madrid should win some games. Heh... Sooner or later its all going to end your way... or my way...

Now, are you going my way?...

Is this for real? tell me im not dreaming...

i'm back! well at last i finished my baby thesis, the program, documentations, defense, everything... and to cut the long story short, it was all good, we passed!! and that means that the lowest grade that i can get is 90. anyway that was yesterdays story.

i just woke up from rest, today will be the start of "the rest of my life." and to jump it off is two capsules of hydroxycut hehe. what is hydroxycut? dietary supplements... lost 2 lbs from it so far :D.

Now for this weeks news, sports news that is... :).

Jose Antonio Camacho stepped down as Real Madrid manager and is replaced by his deputy Mariano Garcia Remon.

Now for my opinion: how can they have solid performance if they cant keep up with coaches? how can they polish the plays with different coaches every year? or every month? i dunno but Real has to get up from the slump theyre in right now.

thats all... the title has nothing to do with the content... its something else ;)

Its all about Politics

Son: Dad, I have a special report for school. Can I ask you a question?

Dad: Sure son, what's the question?

Son: What is politics?

Dad: Well son, let's take our home for example. I am the wage earner, so
let's call me the management. Your mother is the administrator of the
money, so let's call her the government. We take care of you and your
needs, so let's call you the people. We'll call the maid the working class
and your baby brother the future. Understand?

Son: I'm not really sure dad, I'll have to think about it.

That night, the boy is awakened by his baby brother's crying, so he went
to see what was wrong. Discovering that the baby had a heavily soiled
nappy, the boy went to his parent's room and found his mother fast asleep.
He than went to the maid's room, where, peeking through the keyhole, he saw
his father in bed with the maid. The boy's knocking went totally unheard.
The boy went back to his room and went to sleep.

The next morning...

Son: Dad, I think I understand politics.

Dad: That's great son, explain it to me in your own words.

Son: While the management is screwing the working class, the government
is
fast asleep, the people are being completely ignored and the future is full
of shit.

Full Circle

it has always been like this
from here to there...
in anyway... it turns into bliss...

as i have thought that i am well-rounded
talents and skills i am surrounded
it has always been like this

i might not be good at all
but i think im average... lets start a poll
it has always been like this

theres one thing missing
all that hugging and kissing...
sad to think but...
i have always been like this...

theres one thing missing
the love i have waited...
is not here to complete my circle...

sad to think...
i have always been like this...

Slow Day Can It End Like Right Now?

i didnt go to class today... i just slept and took my well deserved rest... theres no quizzes today, just this linggo ng wika presentation all day... so theres nothing to do... i just took the day off...

thesis, i need to finish this thesis, a music database program, plus a manual i just remembered that september 18 will be our day of defense. im planning to start everything tomorrow, and thats final... start and finish everything and i mean everything tomorrow.

im supposed to play football today, such a lovely day for the game, but im knackered, slept late last night and damn tired. and i dont want to show in school just for the game, if i was an asshole i would hehehe knowing my profs knows me well i wouldnt show up... ill play next week :D ill just visit the gym later...

Fall to Pieces by "Velvet Revolver"

It's been a long year
Since you've been gone
I've been alone here
I've grown old
I fall to pieces, I'm falling
Fell to pieces and I'm still falling

Every time I'm falling down
All alone I fall to pieces

I keep a journal of memories
I'm feeling lonely, I can't breathe
I fall to pieces, I'm falling
Fell to pieces and I'm still falling

All the years I've tried
With more to go
Will the memories die
I'm waiting
Will I find you
Can I find you
We're falling down
I'm falling

a long title for a short song about you who messed everything

i wrote this for you
but theres nothing more to say
im lying
and im dying
save me
im drowning

im bloated and blue
and theres nothing more to say
leave me wondering...

by the way...

nothing...

Jack In... Its Been A While...

Well its been a while since i wrote something here... my tests are done so expect me to post a lot again...

the past week were hectic and damn straight stressful... ive been doing a lot of studying, cramming, projects, and that sort of stuff... school stuff... another thing that kept me busy was soccerpulse.com. these dudes are the best, its a whole new soccer world there, from legends to a prediction league that they thought of. anyway their site is getting bigger as i post, and i got through the cut to be in the news crew. id be posting news to cover soccerpulse.com. aint that great?

i have been doing a lot yesterday too, i went with my pop to wind up in the sauna, then after that a soothing sweedish massage. by the time i got home, i borrowed dvd's from my brother to keep me busy. these are some of the movies i watched yesterday.

Monty Python and the Holy Grail (1975)


this movie is sheer class... a spoof of the arthurian tale the quest for the holy grail. i loved the part when the knights who say "ni" appeared... this movie is quite a classic, but a must watch.
rottentomatoes.com rated this movie 93% fresh!

Monty Python's Life of Brian (1979)


better than the holy grail... hilarious movie about brian. the movies timeframe was during the time of Jesus, so you know what the topic is. just "always look at the bright side of life... *whistle*.
rottentomatoes.com rated this movie 97% fresh!!!

i might look for more monty python dvd's. he is a comic genius! anyway thatll be it... cherrio, toodeloo... and NI!!!!

Other Monty Python Movies The Full Monty and The Meaning of Life

How to make a marco

How to make a marco
Ingredients:
1 part friendliness
5 parts courage
3 parts energy
Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Add lovability to taste! Do not overindulge!

"The Brillant Dance" by Dashboard Confessional

So this is odd,
the painful realization that has all gone wrong.
And nobody cares at all,
and nobody cares at all.
So you buried all your lover's clothes
and burned the letters lover wrote,
but it doesn't make it any better.
Does it make it any better?
And the plaster dented from your fist
in the hall where you had your first kiss
reminds you that the memories will fade.
So this is strange,
our sidestepping has come to be a brilliant dance
where nobody leads at all,
where nobody leads at all.
And the picture frames are facing down
and the ringing from this empty sound
is deafening and keeping you from sleep.
And breathing is a foreign task
and thinking's just too much to ask
and you're measuring your minutes by a clock that's blinking eights.
This is incredible.
Starving, insatiable,
yes, this is love for the first time.
Well you'd like to think that you were invincible.
Yeah, well weren't we all once before we felt loss for the first time?
Well this is the last time.
This is the last time.
This is the last time.

EURO 2004 Finals

the set is staged, the players are ready... its time to know who is the best in europe... and come july 4th portugal and greece will battle it out in lisbon.

so far heres the recap... portugal, after their 2-1 loss with the greeks came out, changing their tactics, they won every single match eliminating england and holland.

and as for the greeks... after coming out of the group stage knocking out spain... they stunned czech republic last night with a 1-0 goal by traianos dellas during extended time.

thats a short recap... and as for the favorites (spain, italy, france, england, holland, czech...) better luck next time...

Buried Myself Alive by The Used

You almost always pick the best times
To drop the worst lines
You almost made me cry again this time
Another false alarm
Red flashing lights
Well this time I'm not going to watch myself die
I think I made it a game to play your game
And let myself cry
I buried myself alive on the inside
So I could shut you out
And let you go away for a long time

I guess it's ok I puked the day away
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way
And if you want me back
You're gonna have to ask
Nicer than that

I think the chain broke away
And I felt it the day that I had my own time
I took advantage of myself and felt fine
But it was worth the night
I caught an early flight and I made it home

With my foot on your neck
I finally have you
Right where I want you

Unfinished

you didnt say anything
anything in particular
that you have moved on

you left me hanging there
dangling along the air
nothing left for me and i

shot myself on the head
and then im lying dead on my bed
just trying to get my mind
off of you

you couldve said something girl
i know i called you before
something messed up my mind

why are you hiding there
im just standing here bare
you stripped me my pride and i

shot myself on my bed
and then im lying bleeding on my head
just trying to get my mind
off of you

i have wasted
my time
just to keep it alive
i have wasted
my soul
just to love you more
i have wasted
my life
asking you to be my wife
i have wasted
have wasted
everything i built

just for you...

and i...

shot myself on the head
and then im lying dead on my bed
just trying to get my mind
off of you

shot myself on my bed
and then im lying bleeding on my head
just trying to get my mind
off of you

you couldve saved me...
but its too late...

apology, maybe

why are you hiding girl
why do you have to make everything blur
anything bad i did that occured
if i did anything tell me girl

why do you have to be obvious
at least tell me, so i wouldnt be curious
alone and oblivious
unaware and keeping me away of anything glorious

hate me, you made me
the dreamer i am, you made me
forsake me, shake me
cant take this away, you made me

why do you have to be obvious
at least tell me, so i wouldnt be curious
alone and oblivious
unaware and keeping me away of anything glorious

hate me, you made me
the dreamer i am, you made me
forsake me, shake me
cant take this away, you made me

alright, sorry for what i did
if theres anything, or i might have offended you
thats it, this is my final bid
i told you im sorry thats it
whats next? come out, and open that lid
talk to me, dont leave me blue
i feel like a piece of shit
i come clean, im just sorry for what i did
if theres anything i did...

... EXACTLY!!! ...

Morpheus


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hehe morpheus? matrix?
god of dreams? dreamer? what a coincidence :D

So Impossible by: Dashboard Confessional

So she says
"Everyone's going to the party,
won't you come if I come
with a friend for your friend?
I'd be so pleased to see you
out of the classroom wearing the smile that I'll bring you.
I was hoping to learn a few things like..
Do you do you like dishing the dirt
on the whole class or
talking the big smack or
playing the fool or
wearing all of the latest fashions
or bucking the new trends
wearing your old threads or
if you like coffee in the evening
These are a few things that I'd like to know
that I'd like to know"

So I say...
"I've been scheduled to work but I'll call in
and my friend isn't busy
he'd be happy to join me
and maybe my friend
and your friend
will hit it off or maybe we will?"

I'm dying to know
do you do you like dreaming of things
so impossible or only the practical
or ever the wild
or waiting through all your bad bad days
just to end them with
someone you care about
and do you like making out
and long drives and brown eyes
and guys that just
don't quite fit in
yeah do you like them
So yes, I'll see you there.

bring me to where you are

its been months since your gone girl
and i know what we had, its special girl
a thrilling ride, you had my world whirll...
still cant believe your gone girl

still dreaming, of you not leaving
hold me, carry me, bring me to where you are
im screaming, shivering,
im alone in the cold girl...
bring me to where you are

im missing you
more than a man could be missing you
hold me, once again let me kiss you
embrace you, spend time...
alone with you...

still dreaming, of you not leaving
hold me, carry me, bring me to where you are
im screaming, shivering,
im alone in the cold girl...
bring me to where you are

i still remember that kiss
i know, i felt bliss
that was before...
once again let me hold you at least
im down on my knees, and beggin you please...

baby girl im dreaming, of you not leaving
hold me, carry me, bring me to where you are
im screaming, shivering,
im alone in the cold girl...

...bring me to where you are...

its been months since your gone girl...

Come Around

lost for words
feeling pathetic and absurd
what happened to my world
circling around you like before

years and years i have wandered
along the road i crashed and burned
i should have learned, before
girl im concerned,

im not coming around
no matter how hard i try, girl im bound
help me, im screaming aloud
hope you come around

never been the same
ever since you came
into my life, it seems strange
something about you i cant change

i know i could have layed it all down
quit, and stayed on the ground
i break, stand, chase you, follow you around
i cant help it, im concerned

im not coming around
no matter how hard i try, girl im bound
help me, im screaming aloud
hope you come around

everywhere i go id look for you
every message i recieve id pray its you
every call i answer i hope its you
call me crazy, but...

im not coming around
no matter how hard i try, girl im bound
help me, im screaming aloud
hope you come around

stress

school... blah!!!

Believe it or not, Quinito Hensons predictions is right. And mine is... well... anyway...

the championship is back on the east coast. as far as i remember the west dominated the nba since jordan left the bulls. and now its back, and motown is on top. some say it cant be done, some say they wont stand a chance. lets see who's the b*tch now... the pistons dont have them superstars, they dont even have them superstars that have 90+ ratings on ea sports'nba live 2004, but they had the heart. the pistons saw the chance and they took it finishing strong 4 games to 1.

it all began on game 1 when detroit crushed every laker fans dream of a sweep. the pistons proved that they are not for show but they told the world that they are for real and they are here to stay.

came game 2, it shows that the lakers is having a hard time to win games against the pistons because they had to force an overtime, and its all because of kobe's lucky three pointer.

then the pistons now have their 3 games at detroit... game 3, they finished big keeping the lakers below 70 points... game 4 they had fun and the lakers couldnt do anything to stop a rampaging rasheed wallace. game 5, the moment of truth where every starter of the detroit lineup scored double digits, even the 6'9 ben wallace scored 18 points and grabbed 22 rebounds. chauncey billups won the finals mvp with 21 points and 5.2 assists per game.

after the last second, i can see kobe crying again and shaq walking off the court looking down. i didnt get to watch because i have to go to school, anyway theres a replay anyway. its true that defense wins championships... (and that goes for you real madrid... its defense that wins championships... now go get that trebbel next season forca real!) congratulations for the nba champions the detroit pistons!

photos from nba.com and sports.yahoo.com/nba

EURO 2004!!!

so far heres the recap

group a

greece 2 - 1 portugal
spain 1 - 0 russia

group b

croatia 0 - 0 switzerland
france 2 - 1 england
"woah, 2 zidane goals during stoppage time!!! now thats a crushing defeat"

group c

sweden 5 - 0 bulgaria henrick larrson hat trick
italy 0 - 0 denmark underdog who?

Delayed Game 3 and 4 :: Hooray For The Pistons

the outcome of both games is the same, the only difference was, game 3 was a blowout... game four is somehow closer. detroit now leads 3 games to 1, and game fve will be at the palace in auburn hills... will history repeat itself? will the underdogs beat the star studded lakers? or will the lakers force game 6... lets see tomorrow if the bad boys will bring another championship at detroit... lets see if the beast from the east will go home with the trophy, will it be detroit '04 tomorrow?

NBA Finals Game 2 :: An Upset For The Underdogs

well the outcome was inevitable. it seems that when the going gets tough, the pistons collapse. they were seconds away for a 2-0 lead against the lakers, yet they stumbled. and yet kobe did his late game heroics (damn you kobe!!!). i was in my 11:00 class when the game is on its way. so i just looked at the stats via nba.com. and there, we were cheering for the pistons. we thought that the pistons had the 4th quarter packed, and the lakers back sobbing inside their locker room, but nooo.... kobe had the pistons. with kobe's heroic 3-pointer, the lakers sent the game to OT. and there it all happened... the pistons stumbled, and got nailed on their 89 point mark, while the lakers kept on scoring their 2-0 lead out. and guess what? lakers won... its an upset for the underdogs.

heres a little spice for game 3, derek fisher aint 100%, he is suffering from a knee injury, and theres a posibility that he might not play on game 3. payton isnt himself. and theres no point guard left but... luke walton...

DET 91-99 LAL OT
Recap
Box Score

recap and box score linked from sports.yahoo.com

Runaway

Here, i walk away from you
tired and weary of all the things we did
tired of waiting for your return
im leaving the place that was once ours

here, im trapped inside
i thought i could break of you
thought being away could heal
still my love hooks me up, i couldnt walk further

looking behind i couldnt leave the thought
seeing the place, i couldnt place another step
still hoping, coping to reality that your gone
doesnt help, your gone, im alone, asking you come home

fool to think i could break of you
damage inside still i act cool
i have to run girl, im leaving too
away from you, we have to part ways

same old routine
its no surprise no more
i have to go...
see you around...

hopefully...

NBA Finals Game 1 :: I Stand Corrected

mmmmm... hot soup... well there goes game 1 and there goes the homecourt advantage of the lakers. well the pistons did their job in fact they did a very good job. they man handled the lakers to their first home court loss in the playoffs this year. they contested every shot that the lakers attempted. the pistons gave the lakers a hard time, they were never intimidated by the prescence of 4 all stars in their line up neither did the championship banners that is hanging on top of staples center. the pistons gave their a-game and they proved their worth of the eastern conference champions. the dynamic duo of the lakers, kobe and shaq, scored 59 points and their supporting cast including the 3 points from payton and 4 points of malone totaled to 16 points. now thats defence.

is history repeating itself? or its just sheer talent and determination that came from the east?... surely the bad boys are in town, and they're no hoax.

DET 87-75 LAL
Recap
Box Score

recap and box score linked from sports.yahoo.com

D-Day

almost every student around is preparing for the coming of tomorrow. the start of another school year is just around the corner. in 12 hours, ill be in my uniform, sitting on an arm chair and listening to the proffesors mumblings. a rainy day to start all of it, i can tell because its raining hard tonight.

summer has officially ended and tomorrow i will face the stories of my friends on what they have done, or how they spent their summer vacation, and oh, i might be writing essays about them also. whats new? every year same old same old.

to cut it all short, goodbye bed... see you soon hehehehe

Patiently Waiting

im on the other end waiting
for you, i told you i would
i did everything to please you
everything girl, but neither could

im dying girl, you never even called
just a word ive been waiting
just a greeting, that would stop me messin
girl, im slippin im missin you

longing to see you, i wanna know
if u still care, im still at home
damn cant you see im alone?
still you cant bother to call

just say it and id do it
leave you, forget you
its painful, but i would
im not mad, its just that you did leave me

theres nothing i could do
were in different area codes
id just sit here sad and blue
in my heart im carrying this heavy load

nothing more could be said
i dont even know if u still know me
nothing more could be done
but im still here, and im patiently waiting

My NBA Finals Predictions

Bag the chips, grab your beers, call some friends, the NBA Finals 2004 is just around the corner. Coming June 6th, the Pistons and the Lakers will battle it all out bringing everything for the Gold.

:: The Analysis ::

Detroit won the conference finals against the Pacers is 6 games, and Lakers won it in the West also with 6 games.

I can see that the Lakers will take it home in 6 games, most likely. With Detroit already having a hard time to win it big in the conference finals with the Pacers, I'd say they wouldnt stand a chance. I hate to say it, but they cant even finish the games above 90 points. And thats against the Pacers, put in the likes of Kobe, Shaq, Payton and Malone on the opposition, how will they plan to take the gold home? I mean they won big and i mean big! They went to war and sent the Twolves packing, and they're already a big team with a lot of talent, and still the Lakers managed to win it above 90. I just hope that Dumars is happy with the silverware because i wont bet they'll take home the gold.

:: My Predictions ::

Game 1: @ LA

The so called "Bad Boys" is having they're first finals appearance and they're hyped up. Knowing that they have players dont have the finals experience at all, the Lakers will go home happy and the Pistons will watch the tape of this game with coach Larry Brown.
Lakers win 90-79

Game 2: @ LA

The Pistons will come back with a vengeance, but that wont give them the win. They'll play defense, and take care of Shaq inside. But dont forget that there are still others in yellow who can still score and crush your dreams. Detroit will give em a fight. But that wont be enough to stop em at Staples. The Lakers will have they're 2-0 lead.
Lakers win 88-80

Game 3: @ Detroit

Yeah, the Pistons are back in Auburn Hills and the Lakers will wish they are back home. Because Chauncey, Rip, Prince, and Sheed will take em behind the perimeter. Pistons will get theyre win 2-1, But the Lakers will finish close.
Pistons win 85-80

Game 4: @ Detroit

Naaah... The Lakers will bag this one. The Lakers will know the essence of the Pistons offense, and theyll take it inside and outside. Theyll outscore the Pistons in the paint. Lakers win 90-76

Game 5: @ Detroit

The Detroit will be back on their toes and they'll play defense this time, and cut the Lakers championship hopes for 1 game. Detroit will play the best game they'll ever play since the conference finals. They'll shut down the Lakers in game 5. They'll give em turnovers and put the Pistons on the fastbreak. They'll outrun the Lakers and win this one 93-87

Game 6: @ LA

The Lakers are back home, and they like the crowd in Staples to share the confetti shower with them. Handshakes from the blues and hugs from friends. congratulations said to the long awaited 4th championship of the Lakers. 4-2
Lakers will win this one 95-80

NBA: The 2004 Playoffs Roundup

it was all the san antonio spurs fault, not to finish the lakers. now i know that you know that i am a laker hater, and i am damn proud of it. i mean the spurs already had the lakers on the ropes with a 2-0 lead but then they opened something and let the lakers in with a 4 game win.

next its the twolves and the sacramento game, it was a well fought game but it couldve gone the other way. i mean if the kings never stumbled by the end of the regular season the playoffs couldve gone the other way around. they couldve met at the western conf. finals. its sad to see them battle something meaningless, to meet the lakers on the finals.

the eastern conference are already fighting for their own finals... its the only way that they could get a trophy anyway, in one way or another itll go to the star studded, ring hungry lakers. with malone and payton, who is by the way is fighting tooth and nail for their rings, kobe, shaq and the rest of the lakers who is looking for revenge for last years upset, their invunerable for their 4th title. what else could you expect?

earlier this day i just saw the wolves fell, i didnt see their hunger, i didnt see their determination to win, or they just couldnt handle the phil jackson led team. my brother was right, they dont have "it" to win yet, maybe give em a year or two, or give em shaq, now they have "it" to win. although they had a good season, they finished the best of the west (with their record that is), getting past the 1st round, and beating the kings in 7 games in the second round, and they dont have "it", what is "it" anyway? an unmeasurable thing? leadership? hunger? they have players like sprewell, casell, olowakandi and garnett being the mvp... still no "it"? wtf is "it"??

thats it, first sacramento went down, then the spurs went down (shiiiit), then the wolves... i wont be expecting something from the east, why wont they just give it back to la and start a new season damnit!

Since Your Gone

eversince your gone
i just felt undone
feeling i could just blow a gun
that your gone...
i couldve let you stay
turn back the time i pray
if i may
do it my way
uninspired, thats how i feel
that your gone
something in my heart, it peels
your love i felt, youve shown
looking at oblivion
hiding tears that the wind has blown
told you that id be happier
go and chase your dreams
a hug then it gave you laughter
now i suffer
of being better
without you from now till later
still i cry from trying
saying ur still here, im lying
by any chance that im still crying
the wind blows my tears from hanging
looking up, the wind just blown
my final tear, since your gone

Towards the End

nothing lasts forever
including these days
that i once anticipated to start
now dreaded to end soon
bringing me back to what i used to call life
back to the arm chair
with professors passing notes from his to mine
not wisdom, notes
back to being a slave of the system
a system that you cannot defy
even if you try
youll end up dry...
and as we run towards the end
and we see that line that we are supposed to cut
we start to run fast
never looking back
with the wind rushing to our faces
our paces start to increase
as our feet start to grease
and we feel the breeze
towards the end...
afterwards we wheeze...
trying to catch air, as we breathe heavily
that is the place that i fear most
suffering rather than holding the moment
more laps please
still wanting this to end
than crossing that line
and going back to life...

its near guys, hehehe five more days and our first 4 days in school starts. cherish these moments while you still can, hug your pillow and tuck inside your blankets as hard as you can, because thats how you'll miss em throughout the day, i know i will... sleeping while the sun is still up... sigh...