Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Memoirs of the Wandering Dreamer: To the real world

Yesterday we had our Job Fair at our school. Several companies visited to check out the merchandise San Beda Alabang is offering, yes we we're put on display.

Companies tried to entice us with their benefits and everything, the company that really caught my attention was Chinabank. They have an IT dept, and the presentation was well said and really caught the students attention, they have good stuff to offer the employees. Too bad i was too lazy to apply there. Accenture was one of my targets since... it is Accenture, some say its the Mecca for IT Grads here in the Phils. But then again, if i get an offer at GIS (top of my list) id get that rather than Accenture, if i get in. Hapiness is a weapon for working hard... cmon if youre not happy? why work? and Hapiness is found at the former company since they do offer a good environment and a whole new world to venture in.

Enough about that... so back to the present times. Preparation for this real world we youngens are excited to step in, and the veterans so keen to get out. Im wondering... why?? You work for your livelihood, youre independent and youre just out and about yourself... Why are they so keen to get out? Its for them to know and for me to find out... well... i hope im ready... if im not? i will be soon.

Brighter Side:
RP is leading the medal tally in the SEA Games... Hooray!
RP Booters won against Cambodia and hopefully Malaysia (no news bout that yet)
Peso Rises to 53 to-a 1$

Darker Side:
Itll drive you nuts... better left alone haha stay on the light side

Friday, October 28, 2005

Rant of the Week: Doom

"Learn from your mistakes" is indeed true, after watching doom? i learned that i shouldve listened to the 19% rating from

The title speaks for itself, it truly is... DOOM!... i couldve enjoyed an hour and a half playing the game all over again for free, instead of paying 100 bucks just to sit my ass down and watch the famed game from our time bastardized. Whats next? Scorched Earth the movie?

Loving the violent game from our childhood made our parents crazy about what we are doing in the computer for more than 5 hours... yes we're playing with evil all right, and we dont know evil until we see it. Evil is reading Rock's mouth say "shit" but hearing "smokes"? and how about watching the first person thing they did with the movie but with the mouse sensitivity of 15!. How about watching the movie skip scenes and just see some monster dropping with an axe on his head.
How about just giving me back the hour i spent? I couldve spent that 100 for four hours on a pc shop. sheesh...

Ok, ok... lets find something to praise about the movie? Remember that Big F*cking Gun we used in Quake and Doom? yes its also there, the BFG... Bio Force Gun or Big "Friggin" Gun (I read something else from Rock's mouth). The BFG was really BIG and bad looking, so bad it killed walls instead of monsters... Whats the use of that gun then?

The Action? Well its full of it, shit that is... I dont like watching a movie with my eyes always looking for people roaming in the dark... 2 reasons, I dont like hands just appearing from nowhere and I dont like looking for them on the big screen, FYI the humans invented light waaaay waaaaay back in the day... And they have this thing called a switch to turn them on.

Bottom Line: The movie didnt really deserve the 19% rating they got from RT. If it wasnt for the reminiscing of the game, and the chick who didnt know how to wear a bra on mars? It couldve recieved a Rock Bottom from the most electrifying soldier, Sarge...

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Almost There

First of all, I would like to extend my congratulations to the October graduates! Cheers! You guys deserve it.

Now for me, it just recently got into me that im about to finish my tenure at San Beda College Alabang (Formerly known as Benedictine Abbey School, and St. Benedict College). After a decade and more, im nearly done. 14 years... thats so long and I'm not planning to extend that, no sir.

Recap, 1st sem of my final year is almost done, ive done pretty good in all of my class standings, finished Thesis 1 without any troubles what-so-ever. Took our graduation pictures, and Year Book write ups. Dont worry ill post them once i get my hands on them i know you guys want me to see in that toga, unfortunately its very fab... we're going to wear a red toga... yeah i know.

Took a look at my final 24 units for next sem, and its pretty much a walk on the park from there. I still cant believe that im almost there. The finish line, right here in front of me. I just have to run a little more, until February that is... and from there, its pretty much the Graduation Practice we all love to ruin heh. Once again, Cheers, until then, we wont smoke it until the fat lady sings... come March? lets all get wasted! we all deserve it! 6 months...

We were once kids
playing along in the streets we lived
Were still kids
playing along our lives we will live

We never thought of this before
we all wanted to be an astronaut
I did, but where am I
We could never know what we want
Unless we explore

We can only take this once
One slip and we're all done
One sip, and we're through
Little by little, we'll shit what we chewed

Proud to be in red
proud to bleed red
Right here, right now...
Its our future in our hands

Good luck everyone
Just a little more to endure
have fun during the run...
Good luck, Were almost done.

Sunday, October 09, 2005

Runabout Miseries

I have always thought im alright
I have always thought im strong
tight, bright and always right
somehow i contradict myself, im wrong

im happy, yet im sad
im strong, yet im weak
so soon this feelings will turn bad
but still its happiness we seek

i do have my own principles
i do have my beliefs
torn by my own bristles
im shattered drowning in this reef

im seeking help, pull me away
its dark, it freezes
its not until today
i realized im back with my old miseries.

i miss you...

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Gutted and Disgusted: Real Madrid

We can blame anyone after a loss. But can we be that any worse? From a prominent figure in European Football to the worlds current laughing stock? From the team to beat now the team that's beat?

What happened to our wonderful games from the day of Di Stefano and Puskas? What happened to the only team that held a unique European CL Cup? Why are we held down to 29 European cups and 9 domestic cups? What is happening to "The" Real Madrid?

Some people blame it on managerial errors, some on our so-called Galacticos, and lately some blame it on the referees.

We do have some managerial problems since our President focuses more on gaining income than winning. Real Madrid also sacks and buys coaches like changing our underwear. Selling one of our best strikers for an unproven one is still baffling. And playing 5 new players simultaneously on the field just doesnt do the trick.

Our so-called Galacticos are aging, and simple as that, it creates problems on our lineup. We rely on them game in and game out, and given that theyre 30 years old and more just adds insult to the injury. Zidane is missing when our midfielders are running like headless chickens. He along with Baptista, Ramos, and maybe Helguerra will miss the next match against Bilbao due to injuries and suspensions. What happens to our defense now? Are we going to go with Paco Pavon and Mejia or should we play our ever priceless Jonathan Woodgate.

The referee, well its pretty self-explanatory. Theyre screwing us 3 ways till Sunday. Calling a foul and then counting a goal. Giving a point when the ball obviously never passed behind the line. And finally disallowing a goal when its clearly not offside.

We have lost 3-2 against Celta, 3-0 against Lyon, and 1-0 against Espanyol. What should we expect on the Bilbao match since we're clearly depleted and shorthanded. Who will step up? Will anyone step up, and rise for the occasion? Will we ever get our 30th and our 10th? Will Luxa stay and live up to his promise that he'll win all competitions?

So many questions are being asked here, its still the start, and its still a long way to go. The season has just began and we just woke up in the bad side of the bed. I myself still believes that everything will be alright and like a great Madridista once said. "Even if were in the segunda, i'll still bleed white"

Saturday, September 17, 2005

Songs that plays along my head

Isnt it disdainful and curious
That both of us thinks we know everything

We both have pains
we both have eyes
One in the same
Two of a kind
and Neither of us cant see


Is that the way we stand
Were you lying all the time
Was it just a game to you

But I’m in so deep
You know I’m such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger


Sometimes I can’t move my feet it seems
As if I’m stuck in the ground somehow like a tree
As if I can’t even breathe
Oh, and my screams come whispering out

As if nobody can even see me
Like a ghost, sometimes I can’t see myself
Sometimes, then again, oh

If I were a king
If I had everything
If I had you and I could give you your dreams
If I were giant-sized, on top of it all
Then tell me what in the world would I sing for
If I had it all


Here in your arms where the world is impossibly still
With a million dreams to fulfill
And a matter of moments until the dancing ends
Here in your arms when everything seems to be clear
Not a solitary thing would I fear
Except when this moment comes near the dancing's end

Thursday, September 08, 2005

Dave Matthews - Oh

The world is blowing up
The world is caving in
The world has lost her way again
But you are here with me
But you are here with me
Makes it ok

I hear you still talk to me
As if you're sitting in that dusty chair
Makes the hours easier to bear
I know despite the years alone
I'll always listen to you sing your sweet song
And if it's all the same to you

I love you oh so well
Like a kid loves candy and fresh snow
I love you oh so well
Enough to fill up heaven overflow and fill hell
Love you oh so well

And it's cold and darkness falls
It's as if you're in the next room so alive
I could swear I hear you singing to me

I love you oh so well
Like a kid loves candy and fresh snow
I love you oh so well
Enough to fill up heaven overflow and fill hell

The world is blowing up
The world is caving in
The world has lost her way again
But you are here with me
But you are here with me
Makes it ok

Oh girl you're singing to me still
I love you oh so well
Like a kid loves candy and fresh snow
I love you oh so well
Enough to fill up heaven overflow and fill hell
Love you oh so well

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

The Untitled VI

i played until the time was done
i lived until my days are gone
no regrets to be felt since everything was done
eventhough by this time you're gone

i chose not to be affected
i chose not to succumb to my feelings
i chose to wear this mask
to fathom my remaining pride

hapiness in avoiding certain songs
joy in avoiding certain sights
but lies ran through my veins
i just cant help that im not there with you

i wont let go...
thats my heart speaking
i should let go...
so says my brain...

im weak, dont speak
let this be the end of it...

Thursday, August 25, 2005

Wandering Dreamer blog version 2

Ok im done with my little matrix thingy, its too common, its time for a fresh new something without any copyright infringement what-so-ever...

its a little dirty and comments and suggestions will gladly be appreciated.

Monday, August 01, 2005

Sorry, See you soon...

i might lose track and give up
for aspiring two things will never take its toll
tackling one road at a time is smart
and chasing two different things is foolish
consider me as a fool for not taking the chance
because losing both will is mere stupidity
and winning what weighs more shows a wiser person

for things that are not needed is not to be sought
coward i am for not dipping in the water
for i still have my boat to fix for refuge

an unstabalized person will never stand on their own two feet
and the otherwise though losing a battle will stand up in two feet
we have to give-up some things to grow individually

and whats lost is not our purpose
whats present and in an optimistic view will have hope
wisdom should be embraced first for us not to falter
because it is written that trials will always come and our faith should not be shaken
strengthen your foundation
take heed and dont be decieved
do what you feel is right for the good man wont cause any hurt
nor feel fear
i salute you brother, be happy
and bless others with hapiness.
dont pity for i am happy myself in my own way
its difficult in my situation to see the other road
for left is different from right
and east and west are in two different worlds
the other one is crowded, and im left alone

to say this is sad indeed, but take time to understand
it is needed for us to grow
and to prove our commitment
sometimes, we should sacrifice what we love

i didnt take your ride for im still in one, my own
and if did wrong, caused hurt and despair
then consider this as my attempt for apology
im sorry,
i loved, i took my road
i falter, and experienced pain

chances should be taken not refused like the coward and weak.
but as a man of purpose i will follow suit to seek what is layed down on me

and if all is said and done
if the door is not locked... i will knock

Thursday, June 30, 2005

Excerpt from W.H. Auden's "September First, 1939"

All I have is a voice
To undo the folded lie,
The romantic lie in the brain
Of the sensual man-in-the-street
And the lie of Authority
Whose buildings grope the sky:
There is no such thing as the State
And no one exists alone;
Hunger allows no choice
To the citizen or the police;
We must love one another or die.

-W.H. Auden-

I first heard this while watching "Tuesdays with Morrie",
and to tell you what is it about and how Morrie related the line to us.

This is not a direct quote but its a little something like this.

As an infant we depend on our parents to live.
As an old person we depend on others to live.
And we think that in the middle we're independent
and we dont need dependence. Here's a little secret,
thats the time we need it more.

At first it was quite confusing, but here's how i look at it.
During those days, we tend to try some things, we tend to look out
for ourselves, all we think is ourselves. But little did we know of,
we need other's touch like our parents did when they carried us
upon our shoulders during our younger days. We still need others to
live, hence "We must love one another or die".

We should look out for each other. We must serve as a guide, we might
fall down along the way, then we relate them to those who hasnt yet.
Accept the mistakes and guide those who haven't made it yet. Let no one
suffer the same suffering that we did.

"All I have is a voice, to undo the folded lie".
For we are just an individual in this
huge world we live in. But if we all just hush and listen to
those who share and talk with that little voice. And maybe just maybe
we can have the change that we ask for.

This is just something out from my mind. A screaming though if i may add.

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

Interview with the Dreamer

These questions came from John aka Monty. To play the game, follow the instructions at the end of this post.

1. Paris Hilton was recently quoted as saying that she thinks those people who approach and ask to take pictures with her are losers. What are your thoughts on this? Does she fall under your category of hot women?

I don’t know if its just me, but she doesn't interest me at all... that’s what I hate about her, I don’t know if she's just stupid or just blonde?

She won’t even pass to me as hot even if you put two buns over her and put her in a toaster... simple as...

2. Share to us the dumbest thing you ever did in high-school. Better if you got in trouble for it.

Well, I think writing something on the chair while the prefect was passing by the corridors... coincidence? I guess not! I got suspended for a week for that damn thing... and here's the dumbest alibi... "Sir I was just trying to explain a math problem to my seatmate..."... ON AN ARM CHAIR!!!!... That’s why the papyrus paper was innovated... oh well...

3. Are you a person who’s willing to hook up with a hot, sexy older woman? Is it going to be just a physical thing or would you allow yourself to fall in love?

wow... this is deep man... very well... I think just a hook up if she's up to it hahaha... or if she's willing to give me a Porsche then why not (blind item... I know you guys know this local celebrity... hers a clue... big tits and annoying)... but falling in love is different... man you have to put up on everything she does... plus she's older... that would mean... ANOTHER MOTHER man... all the nagging and the nagging and the nagging I have to put up to everyday... (John I know you're feelin me on this one)... that would just suck, but then again... show me the Porsche...

4. Did you believe the things that were said on The Da Vinci Code? Why do you say so?

Ahhh... a question on my faith... well the book was good, fiction yet it seemed like it was based on facts... if it was something like the National Treasure then why not I might go to France and dig up under the Louvre...

It was just fiction man; I'm not a kid anymore that believes that the Ninja Turtles exist...

5. What do you think is it about gangster movies like Scarface, or The Godfather, or even Lock, Stock that guys love to watch even though most of the characters there are obviously evil and corrupt?

It’s the take no shit from anyone attitude that we aspire... For me it’s simply entertainment... and for me to feel macho and say... "Yeah I’ve seen that... ASTIG NO??" plus it arms us with quotations like "Say hello to my little friend"... Lock stock and two smoking barrels is different... I got it out of curiosity and I heard it was funny so there...

The Godfather is different... if we look deeper into its message aside from the killing and cursing, it still has a message about family ties man (TY to Red for telling me about the message)...

Scarface is out of curiosity too, and yes... it did answer my question that it is possibly the movie that holds the record of saying the F-Word the most...


Here are The Official Interview Game Rules:

1. If you want to participate, leave a comment below saying “interview me.”
2. I will respond by asking you five questions - each person’s will be different.
3. You will update your journal/blog with the answers to the questions.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview others in the same post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

If you don’t have a blog, I will still ask you 5 unique questions and you can post your answers here.

Saturday, June 11, 2005

Lost in your absence

singing songs of sadness and regrets
slow meloies shows my melancholy
lonliness together with gloom
how will i ever be fit to bloom
somehow my heart aches to its doom
alone hurting in my room
my feelings guided my hand to write again
days passed by since i last scribbled
somehow words dont fit my emotions
it all began when it ended
my last glimpse of you within my arms
my last sight of your smile towards mine
the hapiness we shared
the joy you gave me
somehow made me feel im wanted
like the flower needed your light
but since you're gone
im back to where i was
im once again lost...
in the absence of my sun...

Friday, June 10, 2005

Here Tonight - Hale

Note: "Recently i just cant find the right words to write, good thing these guys did. It seems that they took the words out of my heart heh. Anyway, here it is, the lyrics of the song Here Tonight by Hale"

So long to you my love
Don't be afraid to run away
I know you'll be okay
Just take your time to find

But i need you here tonight
I need you here inside
I need you here tonight
I really, really need you here tonight

Made up my mind on this
Too late for me to hold you back
Maybe too short or dumb
To cry for you but i will anyway

It's all my fault
To feel this way for you that day
I know i am and i will
Though it's wrong, so wrong

Cause i need you here tonight
I need you here inside
I need you here tonight
I really, really need you here

I need you, i need you
I need you here inside
I need you i need you
I really, really need you

Saturday, May 28, 2005

Took a time off...

Sorry for the late updates for ive been busy with my new blog... Radix Lecti its a blog wherein me and some of my friends lays down our 2 cents on movies, series, music, maybe games as soon as we get new consoles...

feel free to visit and drop something in the chip bowl...

Good Times!

Friday, May 27, 2005


an empty space once more
alone again in this gloomy pour
inch by inch i feel it sore...
couldve stayed, shouldve told you more

i dont know if it was the same with you
for all i know, i left without a clue
i felt regret, i shouldve stayed true
and now im blue, i shouldve told you

and now im troubled, i cant be at peace
for my mind it calls out to you, it wont cease
im tired, im breaking, im on my knees
emotions wont leave, im down and begging... please

for i am left but an empty space
voided and blank, im out of the race
out of place, now and then i cant keep pace
im without you...
im voided...
in this oblivious place...

Saturday, May 14, 2005


pain still lingers
in my heart it clots
it aches, it shivers

i thought its gone
in my system, it clogs
my fight goes on

i want you back
since your gone
hope fades to black

i miss you so bad
it kills me, i turn to a wreck
i wish the time was longer
on those days,
that its you i had

Thursday, May 12, 2005

Melancholic Recurrence

thunders clash, showers starts
no visibility in this hard rain
lightning flares my gloomy sky
no one beside,
no hand on mine,
no stars to guide,
still and alone on my storm
and like this i still fight the norm
cant sleep to dream...
still darkness, no sight of gleams...
more and more it starts to scare...
these ghosts haunting, lonliness isnt fair...
sleep no more dream no more, hence...
stop these melancholic recurrence...

Friday, May 06, 2005

The Untitled IV

just when a day hits rock bottom
a call answered added to my sorrow
a smile today, is pain tomorrow
for all i know heart aches will follow

alone by myself, im not scared
alone by myself, i lived and dared
while with you, pride stripped and bared
cruelty you formed, in my head it flared

i gave what you took
i wish to close this book
you want me back, you want me shook
i cant even give you a decent look

now a sudden rush to my head
anger that built, this submerged guilt...

Friday, April 29, 2005

Dying Mem'ries

a haunting mask
leads to this daunting task
take me away from this dark sack

they say past is past
it feels like it wont last
why cant i send it away so fast

the moments i seek
in my memories it leaks
in teary forms, sadness it wreaks

forever you'll stay
that im sure, ill say
forever heartbreaks and tears...
in here, i'll pay...

Monday, April 25, 2005

Senseless Poetics

Stay a while and listen
hear me, share my bleeding
tired and troubled, im spent
stay high and smile, i cant

previously these days are fun
real world im back,
im down, feels like a ton
get up, no... ill hit the sack

groan and weep, ill try to sleep
heavy eyed and sick, energy is leaked
adiós mi amigo, adiós para ahora
arreglo enfermo mismo, tan pronto como despierte

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

Politically Incorrect

my brain seems to be an empty mass
blank and vast, where knowledge was...
fierce and mad, the world became
people dont see it, theyre blind and lame
feel it free, the winds of change
one by one they falter, said the evil sage
opposite i stand, i run counterflow
while others agree, to the venerate they bow
what they fought now lost in time
see we're still captive, we've done them crime
where is it now, that we boast freely
independence lost, caused by the greedy
speak up, stand up, clench your fists
take out the chains off our wrists
captivated mother, send out your children
dont let rain ruin the fire of my brethren
cry out loud, rushing blood and sweat
and let them hear, make them lose their bet
hide it now, tears are fears
we will run trembling, scourging their ears
im not afraid, in their hearts i'll wreak
wont break it, but shake it, make it freak...
station, ill stay and write free
but ill fight the wind, lose and gain, like a tree...

Tuesday, April 19, 2005


Oh how im willing to waste
this life i am living for another
how i search for that taste
the score thats far away brother

a toddler, once i was
loved, and hugged i once had...
attention now i seek
take a look, i aint that bad

sanity once i lost i now hold
now i step up, brave and bold
stripped off my pride, alone in cold
if i had a child, these were told...

i lurk in depths of darkness i believe
i hide not to seek, but to chill
the smile in my face, that now i peel
shame and regret, lately i feel

why did i leave, why give up?
i never had the chance to try and pick up
now it just rings, please answer
time now wasted, now passed...
which i wish, i had...

Friday, February 18, 2005

And This Two Shall Pass

two souls drawn out from a far
both the same, and w/ broken hearts
two souls from different worlds apart
both combined under one wishing star

different souls, different characters
she might be his answer, his next chapter
different souls who shares joy and laughter
both the same, dreaming for ever after

different signs, different lines
both hits the spot, each other likes
one is a dreamer thats still in his flight
the other one is grounded, still willing to fight

this may come out of the blue
but the two shares something, no need for clues
dont blame him if he falls for you
like she said, she always gives them the cue

and if he ever do fall in love
hopefully she considers what he said above
and if he's wrong about this love
he promises to flee, flee peacefully like a dove

for i know he wont take it too fast
because i know he wants it to last
and if the two of them gets a chance
i'll tell you that this two shall pass...

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

Great Escape

green pastuers and flower beds
on a day so fine, i could rest my head
calm, and tranquil in this land of mine
sit down and relax, come drink my wine

you could be here, and be a boss
you chose not to, very well not my loss
ill stay here, too bad it could be us
not my fault, you made your choice

cool is the breeze that touches my cheeks
on warm and clear waters i rest my feet
so long i asked for this, so long ive waited
and now im near, but i feel ive melted

time and time again, id go here to unwind
lay and relax i start to clear my mind
i dont need you, im fine alone
no longer a dog to fetch your bone

few more weeks, i start to count
more reasons i start to pout
nearing this time i longed
even in soltitude, where i still belong

and like i told you, im not sad
life is so beautiful, no reason to feel bad
and in writing, im smiling like a young lad
just by telling you about this dream i had...

Monday, February 14, 2005

The Untitled III

few roads i took,
back and forth ive looked
so far ive never reached the end to close my book

years and years ive searched
for one love i yearned
and all those calls that i know you never heard

my life is shook
since the day my heart you took
so hard to even give myself a look

with a few more words i wish to send
for i am nothing more, im spent
as i wish that this time you'll listen

i leave with nothing more to say
before i pass out, and lay
i still find time, to wish you a happy valentines day

Monday, February 07, 2005

A Delayed Dedication

for so long i thought i was alone
just realized that with you, i belong
within the dark i start to see
a light coming from beyond, i start to see
a blinding flash eats it all up
and how you helped me stand up
i thought i was the only one hurting
and as i saw your hand
same as mine, all wounded and bleeding
i heard you say dont worry my son, dont worry
i was always there and waiting
i cant help it how you lurk yourself
all the while im the one who keeps on crying
whats wrong my son, whats wrong?
i gave it all up for you, whats wrong?
cry no more, im here now
i felt his touch, ever warm and tender
his love for me, im ashamed, i cannot compare
i wish i could just surrender, i wish
give it all up, like you did
this is a start, i made this for you
and im sorry for a delayed dedication

In The Streets of Cold

Lonely tonight i seek
the love we had i want to seal
steal the moment out from the past
the one that faded too fast

look at me, my love take a look
lonely as i am, give me back what you took
since you left, i never got it back
and along with my heart, i want you back

dont part, lets stay forever
'till the end, darling forever
dont smirk, im sober
when it comes to love, im still a believer

my one and only, please lets marry
be with me, along the time we'll cherish
this life you and i, i will hold
and i tell you, ill stay away from the cold

patient as ever, i'll wait
for how long, i dont know, i'll wait
hand in hand, how i wish we'll hold
to walk together, forever, not alone
in this streets of cold...

Tuesday, January 18, 2005


unconsciously a tear dropped, unconsciously
as i hold my head up high i prayed
no more of this, no more pain i plea
found myself in a typical situation, let me flee
more of this ill force myself to bleed

unconsciously i hold my head weeping, unconsciously
secrets known, i wish that was never been told
give me back my pride i wished i hold
shouldve done what i can, shouldve been bold
now im left all alone in the cold

unconsciously, i fell down unconsciously
had my last glimpse of reality before i fell out of consciousness
i had to end it, couldnt handle more of this loneliness
should i pretend to be happy? i choose to go blind
no more of this ill just run away and hide

unconsciously, i cried...
unconsciously, i wept...
unconsciously, i had to end it...
deep down inside...
i had to die...

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

Poetic Ramblings #2

Stress... she's a killer
and inch by inch i start to feel her
creeping, leering, she starts to peel
and every moment i start to feel
hear me, i beg you please
do me a favor and put me at ease
i pray that the madness turn into peace
before i start to fall piece by piece
look at them, listen
they say value life
while they sell vice
one by one they start to fall
minute after minute all we can do is stall
we have time my friend
but it is stolen
just like what happened to our brothers that have fallen
hold back brother, dont go with them
let me be the one that remains swollen
close your eyes, close them tight
i fought the fight and lost my right
words are not to be shaken
but the man remains bruised while awakened
sleep, close your eyes dont wake
let me do it until it quakes
until the ground shakes
until the glass breaks
ill do our fight until silence breaks
do your job, reap your rewards
leave it to the minor who is still at guard
oh yes, stress is a killer
the reaper, ill soon feel her
i need more time, but again its stolen
soon ill depart and join the fallen
take over brother, take my post
feel the pain and show it to our host
hold the weapon, then stab it to their hearts
let them know what we are feeling
until they stop the killing
then we will stop chilling
we are now one...

Poetic Ramblings #1

once more i scribble
few more hours before i wake
to dance once with someone else's music
the one i ought to not
but who am i to disrespect
they ought for me to give them one
just a man without a sword
prepared to battle unarmed
the unpassive when supposed to be the opposite
who rides the waves and not to fight
remains standed when everyone else is attacking
remains at ease when all is stiff
they mold me to be unmolded
for once i am awakened
the truth about it all, be educated
i write with my right
but not what they believe is right
i hold only my right
with full might, but to be silenced once more
look at them, i pity them, i pity myself
im the only one shouting when everyone else is silenced
and in my soltitude i find peace
behind my four walls i beg peace
the lover, the dreamer i sleep
but again to be awakened by the cries
the cries of my brothers
your brothers who needs the light
the light in the dark
the fire in the cold
the dreams of the asleep
awake, arise, do your right
stand by me, lets fight...