Went Down Along The Sun

together along the shore
staring at the beauty of the sun
that painted the sky orange

we hugged,
we snuggled
together we dreamed
together we was

still thinking about it
why i didnt took some memories with me
why did i leave it behind
why did i threw it away

our dreams took us apart
different and far from each

now alone
back to the city
back to reality

far apart
never we will be close
two different places
will never be one

if i knew it was our last time together
i shouldve never left your arms
if i knew we could never see each other
i shouldve never parted my lips from yours

now alone
never we will be close
and now every time the sun sets
it grabs hold of me and grabs me down along with it

The Untitled II

i kept on smiling
i kept on laughing
somehow i found myself hurting

alone in the piercing cold
running alone bold
searching for something to hold

still smiling
still laughing
somehow i managed to wander more

lost and weary
tired and hungry
try to pull myself together

breathing heavy
breathing slowly
it will come soon...

i felt something snap
knees folding
everything hurting

here i fought
here i lied
here i died

no one noticed
no one knew
no one saw me
no one not even you

you thought i was fine
but i was not
it was my fault
to hide it all

you saw me laughing
when i was hurting
i told you i wasnt alone
when i am by myself

it wasnt me
it was you
who stabbed me
and squeezed my life

slowly...

Some Devil

One last kiss one only
Then I'll let you go
Hard for you I've fallen
But you can't break my fall
I'm broken don't break me
When I hit the ground

Some devil some angel
Has got me to the bones
You said always and forever
Now I believe you baby
You said always and forever
Is such a long and lonely time

Too drunk and still drinking
It's just the way I feel
It's alright
Is what you told me
Cause what we had was so beautiful
Feel heavy like floating
At the bottom of the sea

You said always and forever
Now I believe you baby
You said always and forever
Is such a long and lonely time

Some devil is stuck inside of me
I cannot set it free
I wish, I wish I was dead and you were grieving
Just so that you could know
Some angel is stuck inside of me
But I cannot set you free

You said always and forever
Now I believe you baby
You said always and forever
Such a long and lonely time

Stuck inside of me

The Untitled

here i am again
battling the tides along the way
sailing away
nearing a fork
torn to where ill be heading
i know ive been here before
i knew that i was running in circles
confused and lost in the tide
sail away...
sail away...

fairy tale

sometimes we cant stop thinking about something after watching a mushy movie... haha what if this happens what if that happens... i myself is a victim of this everytime i watch mushy movies.

thats why sometimes we have to watch out what we are believing in movies... maybe one day that particular actor will go out and candidate for presidency... anyway, these are all dreams. fairy tales if i may. where every moment is happy and it always end in happy endings. soulmates, fate, the inevitable... but sometimes its amazing how we end up seeing the same things from the big screen. we meet someone unexpected, then later, we find that we have similar opinions in such things as love... quotes, lines, phrases... same thing opinions and views, the same. its also unbelievable to know how it all happened. hehe well i guess sometimes fairy tales are real.

have you ever got that feeling when you met someone for the first time but then you felt that youve known her all your life? is it just me? hehe i just did. again the inevitable.

i did something silly before, hehe i was deeply in love with this certain person... and one time while lying alone on the shore where the stars gives you the mood of being in love. i just asked a star to fall if this feeling that i have with this certain girl is going to end up somewhere, particularly marriage... and to my surprise one fell hehe i doubted that star i asked another one then poof poof poof... 3 fell down simultainously... that was the time when i really believed in fate. it all broke down one day when everything i had was gone... a second present now... a second gone later... it comes and it goes...

they say love is an inspiration to jump. they say love makes the world go round... some say love is for fools... it all made sense at last... im a fool myself... love is really for fools... have you heard yourself talk when youre in love? you might laugh when you speak long and very meaningful words that didnt exist before. for me... love is the "i dont know" reaction... lost for words... for me thats love... why do i love this person... i dont know... because love dont come with reasons... its a feeling... a connection that exist between to people that are capable of feelings. thats love... we really cant derive words out of it... it is a dead word... love is love. :D well anyway... just a share of thoughts... have nothing to do here anyway... till then ta tah!

nearing the end

pressure, stress
pushes a man to the edge
stop the laughters
seriousness begins

begin to scream
begin to work
quit relaxing
quit loafing
it starts to end

walking out
running in
dont get lost in the crowd
might finish last

everythings a possibility
everythings an opportunity
grab the moment
seize the time left

begin to cry
begin to lie
quit relaxing
quit loafing
it starts to end

simple as that
everything changes
a second now
a second gone

time is of the essence
time is all that we need
ask more of it
ask to finish it

begin to scream
begin to work
quit relaxing
quit loafing
its fast approaching

time is of the essence
time is all we have wasted
shouldve done that before
shouldve finished it now

still relaxing
still loafing
pressure pushing
stress cutting

it could be now
it could be later
it could be tommorow
it could be never

tick tock
time clicking
begin to scream
begin to work

wanting relax
wanting sleep
eyes drooping
time needed
quit relaxing
quit loafing
theres time for it

time for relaxing
time for loafing
no more pressure
no more stress
when it ends...

Last Cigarette

a huff
a puff
5 minutes gone...

standing alone...
thinking its gone...
waiting alone on this dark road...

a huff
a puff
5 minutes gone...

looking at the lighted stick...
waisting time in it...

a huff
a puff
5 minutes gone...

nearing its end...
im just around the bend...

a huff
a puff...
5 minutes done...

ditched the stick...
slowing its end...
soon i will be done...
and then im gone...

just like this cigarette...
burning slowly...

life is short...
and im rushing it...

just like this cigarette...
which im just finishing...

as i smoked my last one...
ill say goodbye...

for life is short...
...

sunday morning

Sunday morning rain is falling
Steal some covers share some skin
Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
You twist to fit the mold that I am in
But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
And I would gladly hit the road get up and go if I knew
That someday it would lead me back to you
That someday it would lead me back to you

Fingers trace your every outline
Paint a picture with my hands
Back and forth we sway like branches in a storm
Change the weather still together when it ends

But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
Sunday morning rain is falling and I'm calling out to you
Singing someday it'll bring me back to you
Find a way to bring myself back home to you

And you may not know
That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow?
Driving slow on Sunday morning
And i never want to leave

If I could just see you again... (R.I.P. MAX)

grief.... all i felt was grief... i usually dont feel any of this... but since he just passed away... all i felt was grief... never have i felt this way, when i opened my door... i still expect him to jum around me and asks me to kneel down so he can lick me all over my face... i will surely miss the way you jump at our legs when we eat our meals... and ill surely miss how much fun you have brought to our family... you will be missed...

tears... tears went down when i tried to sink it in me that youre gone... never again will you jump around and run all over the house... and never again will i hear the bark you will give when ever we came near that door...

pain... pain is all i felt when i went up to my room where i last saw you... pain is all i felt when i remember the thumping of your feet whenever i scratch your belly... and pain is all i felt when i think of you...

these are all i can feel right now... and this is all because that you gave up the fight... im sure your happy where ever you are dog... remember that all dogs go to heaven... and for sure... when i get there... greet me as you usually do when ever i went inside the house... ill give up everything just to scratch your belly again... i already miss you... and i just realize the pain of losing you... when its too late... i will never forget this day... when you were longing for a goodbye... when you were crawling with all of your strength between my feet... and i never even got a chance to cuddle you one last time...

rest in peace dog... see you when you get there... you will never be forgotten

Its Still A Wonderful Lonely World For Me...

A lot of my friends keep on asking me how i live and go along this life without somebody by my side. i just keep on smiling, and never giving them a thought or a word. well sometimes i give them my reasons, but all of them are just the outside. and if you happen to read this, well you got my smiles all wrong. right here is the inner depths of my heart and mind. all those thoughts that i kept on holding while im in public and where everyone who knows me and see me. its just a mask and im just a listener who is still in need of counseling.

the laughters, the gestures, and the smiles are the results of all the beauty of this world can offer. theres too much of it to stay depressed. and all of them are just there for you to find out. but when the sun goes down and the moon rises, gloom enters my heart. sometimes my loneliness eats me up, where i dont find someone to talk to. i just miss that certain person... thats all... i dont know why, i dont know how... but the times that i couldnt sleep... memories keeps on running through my head... just like now... i just dont want to talk about it...

cold is rushing in
the darkness creeping in
i couldnt stand this loneliness
alone and deserted in this mystery they call life
but i still wear this mask
the one you gave me
when im afraid to say something
or show something
a smile, a smirk, laughters, gestures...
a mask...

still here
looking around
walking alone
in this wonderful lonely world

When I Fall

I wish I could fly
From this building, from this wall
And if I should try,
would you catch me if I fall?

I'll Be Around

Words fall silent when no one will hear
Emotions are deadly when there's too much to fear
Touch a feeling and we feel again
To know the pleasure, we must know the pain

I'm going down for the last time
Open your eyes

Who's gonna hear you when you're callin'
And who's gonna catch you when you're fallin'
Who's gonna trust you
Well I'll be around for a while

And who's gonna heal you when you're bleeding
And who's gonna give to you when you're needing
And who's gonna love you
Well I'll be around for a while

When love lies bleeding only fools are bold
They search for pennies in a pot of gold
Faith is dying when no one's to trust
But your soul is crying
And it's glorious

It's coming down to the last time
Open your heart

Who's gonna hear you when you're callin'
And who's gonna catch you when you're fallin'
And who's gonna laugh with you
Well I'll be around for a while

And who's gonna warm you when you're freezing
And who's gonna hold you when you're screaming
And who's gonna promise you
to be around for a while

There you stand, drowning in the rain
Kidding yourself the wind don't sting
And all this time the thing you want is calling to you

I dig the way you take that storm
While spitting in the face of right and wrong
Well you could let down your defenses
When you're in my arms

You could my face
in my arms
You could dream on and on
in my arms
You would never be alone
in my arms
You could cry like a child
in my arms

Who's gonna hear you when you're callin'
And who's gonna catch you when you're fallin'
And who's gonna trust you
Well I'll be around for a while

And who's gonna mend you when you're broken
And who's gonna find you when you're stolen
And who will always love you
I'll be around for a while

And who's gonna shield you when it's rainin'
And who's gonna kneel with you when you're prayin'
Who's gonna feel for you
Well I will, I'll be around for a while

Who's gonna help you when you're tryin'
And who's gonna hold you when you're dyin'
Who's gonna beg you
To be around for a while

I Think God Can Explain

There's a lot of things I understand
And there's a lot of things that
I don't want to know
But you're the only face I recognize
It's so damn sweet of you
to look me in the eyes

The sent of vasoline
in the summertime
The feel of an icecube
Melting overtime
The world seems bigger
Than both of us
Yet it seems so small
when I begin to cry

I'm so much better than you guessed
I'm so much bigger than you guessed
I'm so much brighter than you guessed

I'ts alright I'm OK
I think God can explain
I believe I'm the same
I get carried away

It's alright I'm OK
I think God can explain
I'm relieved I'm relaxed
I'll get off of your back

I think God can explain

The Fork in The Old Road

going back...
back to where i lost it
back to the fork in the road where i lost myself
i stumbled upon memories
memories that i dont want to leave behind
i sat and took a rest
i took a good look at the places that we've been
i took a peek on how i looked like then
and i saw my eyes never leaving yours
and i looked at you just doing your old thing
i left and walked more trying to leave those
and then stumbled again to a memory that we have spent
all day long just you and me
all day long, giggling, laughing and smiling
i asked myself why...
why do i keep on looking back where i need to go is right in front of me
why do i keep on clinging to the past where i have lost my sanity
why do i still keep on loving you...
and by then i looked back to where you passed by a long time ago
and to the road where i left myself when i ran to you
i sat and thought whats it going to be
what road will i choose
i gave myself a moment
a moment to reflect and to think for myself
i walked back to the path where you went
and followed my heart
thinking i tripped and stumble along this road
and ill do it all again just to be with you...

Somebody New

I met somebody new
And she was not like you
i left her
and then i found you
i thought this will be it
until you ran and found somebody else
i chased after you thinking what the hell
and its like im falling in a deep well
i miss those times i was with you
and that wont measure up w/ somebody new
and when i do meet up with somebody new
id tell her shell never measure up with you

NBA: Knicks-Suns Trade

For the New York Knicks. Im watching the Knicks-Rockets game right now, with Hou leading 107-78 with 1:00 remainin, and all i can say that the trade just made the Knicks worse. With McDyess gone, Van Horn is forced to play at PF. Van Horn is tall a spot up shooter but never a post player. He has the height but not the body which a power forward needs. Battling against the top PF in the league will be hard for Van Horn.
The former suns, Marbury and Penny. They are running players, and after the game i watched the Knicks is not a running team. The Knicks is a shooting team and do not play fast breaks as much as the Suns did. I observed Marbury is running after he gets the ball and looks for open players, but open and running players are nowhere to be found on the floor. Allan Houston and Keith Van Horn, the primary Knicks players, are not known for their fast breaks or penetration shots. These players are always looking for an open spot outside the perimiter. Thats why i think the former Suns are not that compatible in the NY lineup. They have a lot of talent in their roster, and my prediction is that they will start winning after a year or two. comment me if im wrong here.

For the Suns. They dont need Mcdyess, and i can see McDyess is still not back to his old Nugget form where he is strong in the post and grabbing rebounds. He may have an excuse because he just got off from his injury and may have his own jitters. But as a veteran you should know how to bring momentum for your team. Back to Phoenix not needing McDyess, they have Amare Stoudamire in their roster, which is injured upto now, and Gugliotta on their bench. They are overflowing with PF's. Marion is still playing good, and rising young stars such as Joe Johnson and Leandro Barbosa who is starting to step up for the Suns. Johnson the top scorer with 25 for the Suns yesterday against the Bucks, and Barbosa with 16 (which is the normal numbers for Marbury) is filling out the gap that Stephon and Penny left. I can say that Phoenix got rid of unecessary expenses for young and promising stars who needs their exposure.

The Suns got the best of this deal, sure Knicks got the names but the Suns got a future for their former bench players like Barbosa and Johnson. Now as Coach Rev said, Can i get a lay up?

Staying and Wondering

wondering where can you be
i havent heard from you for a while
i miss you so much
i hope you realize this feeling i have
dont mind me im just here
waiting for you
thats all you have been doing
not minding me
maybe because im just here
still wondering where can you be
youve been gone too long
i just want to talk to you
i just want to say how i feel
i cant let this go on forever
forever trapped inside me
where the burden is building
each and everyday its growing
wondering where can you be
havent heard from you for a while
please im begging you
give me a ring
just say to me hi
then say goodbye
then ill be by myself again
waiting for you
just here... right here
all i have to do is wait
for my feeling to fly away
wondering where can you be
my love where are you
just tell me where you are right now
and ill be right here waiting


"sometimes i think that im dumb, or maybe retarded. sometimes i think that im not. sometimes i think im loved, but then again, maybe not. hey i know you know who you are... all im saying im just right here waiting..."

The Thursday Morning Kick-Off

Thinking about the NCAA-South is just around the corner. and our team is really out of shape. Take a look at me, sure i do know how to dribble, pass, shoot, and make alot of fancy moves when not pressured. And for sure, our opponents in that tournament will always pressure someone who is likely to fumble while dribbling the ball. I also lack consistency on my games. Some games i do wear my gameface, but only when forced to. A lot of times im that goody goody two boots football player who wont hurt a chick. My point is how will i survive with this kind of mentality and pressure running through me? We'll know because the league is already starting two weeks from now. My rookie debut as a football player. My time to shine, or whine, or whatever.

Later we will have our weekly practice, and thank God our coach will be there again. I remembered last Tuesday when our sweeper (lets hide him in the name of Terminator, because thats what he usually do to forwards, he Terminates them... literally) nearly ended the career of three high school players. I saw the spoil, the way they moaned and grinned in pain, and the way the terminator stared at them with no emotions. I'll have to give it to the Terminator, because thats what sweepers do... the sweep the m**th**f**ck**s off of their feet. I had mine last year, it nearly got me out of the line up for NCAA-South.

Lets go back to thinking about it. Where was I? Our out of shape college team. We had our fun in the pitch, had a few serious games, and when i say few i say few, and had a short time for serious training. But honestly, we lack experience, some of us resistance which is really necessary for the whole 90 minutes in the pitch. Again thinking about this make me sweat my ass off. I cant stay that long, i cant even stay for a whole half! I admit, Im huge, im slow, but im strong.

Well enough about this and lets go to one of the funniest highlights of the past year. We all know about our noisy, hyper friend La Rosa. And we also know the moronic idiot who cant speak a damn word clearly, Dy also known as the Yakuza, The Last Samurai, or simply the Idiot in school. Did i mention that he's a pathetic loser? Ok here it goes. It was just narrated to me by my friend who would liked to be called "DAO". It all began to La Rosa calling Dy "The Last Samurai" for maybe 50 times a day? i dont know but all i know that it is hella lot! Then blah blah blah and they end up fighting. First Dy tried to break La Rosa's left wrist, but it didnt work, no matter how hard Dy tried, it really... really didnt work. He huffed, He puffed and he even make a single bone snap. La Rosa got irritated and punched him smack down on the face. Dy, as a pathetic moron that he is, started to huff and puff and chased La Rosa until La Rosa bumped into the Vice Dean. Well the funny line from Dy is "Bakit ayaw mong magpasapak?" which is another reason that i can support my pathetic loser statement. Who the hell whould like to get him punched by a man who looks like an overgrown sloth?!? Can you see my point? That was it... The highlight of last year.

Its almost 9:30 here and im about to switch classrooms. The first period has ended, and ill put an end of this mumbo jumbo. Have a nice Day!!!

searching for myself

for once in my life
i have seen myself
weary and tired of the journey
thinking of giving up
thinking of sitting down
overlooking the tough path
theres still a thousand miles to go
looking for somewhere to rest
looking for somewhere to take a break
when all the time i was running towards her
i almost forgot what i am supposed to do
i chose the wrong forks in the road behind
i chose the path she passed
and not what i wanted to
i sacrificed my whole self
just to get to her
i sat down and thought
maybe i should just let her go...
let her live her own
and as for me...
ill go back
look for myself...
the way i am when i left it behind

-Wandering Dreamer-

The Untitled

i sighed and saw that it was still imposibble...
thinking about running away
from you that i always think of...
when all the time i was chasing you...
you that i miss the most
i cant help that i am so in love with you
leaving a thought that i could never be near you
now i ask for just one moment from you
to think about this for a second
a dream of mine yet to come true
or will it stay as a dream...
my a dream... just to be with you

-Wandering Dreamer-