'Til It Ends

i couldve ended it before
i couldve just left it there
but still it grows
something i could not just share

to you whom i think of most
with you i can boast
i couldnt be a better host
be with me, thats what matter most

if... whats next
a small word with many possible phrases
a possibility, of what might, and not quite
something i couldnt hex

i can give out my all
but i would just end up small
i know what will happen
its not even how i want it to begin

now im just alone
losing what i treasure most
a dream that was once shown
nothing more but a hoax

suffering and still hoping
within my hands i am coping
i cant let it all go
its just i love you so...

i couldve ended it before
left it alone and go
something now i can share
this story of mine i bear

and i'll have to wait...
till it ends...

Dreams...

What are they? they are the things you want to achieve, you want to see, you want to pursue. some of these dreams are things that you couldnt get your hands in to...

Some are nightmares, some are too dreamy to tell... some are weird and unexplainable, but some are still

no matter what they are dreams... mine yours.

and for me... dreams is a moment. a moment that everything that i have ever wanted since i was a child is real.

Definition of Bliss

to hell with this
i dont care what happened to bliss
as i fell down on my knees
i begged and prayed for one last kiss

alone was my verdict for life
stood up and picked up a knife
to hell with this
this is bliss

it wont end till it ends
till one reach that ditch around the bend
a message i refuse to send
the beginning of the end

no man is happy till he's dead
i heard this was once said
to hell with this
this is bliss

Memoirs of the Wandering Dreamer: Reloaded #1

I got stuck with this phrase "The right place, at the right time" and now im wondering when will this time come... or will it ever happen at all? Some say its inevitable, some say its just a saying. For me, everything is the right place at the right time. Again enter this old saying that "Everything happens for a reason".

I'll bring it all back to yesterdays story, yesterday was a good day to let a blog to pass. Yesterday was my official return to the pitch. And knowing myself as a hardcore Real Madrid fan, i was forced to wear my Barcelona jersey, reason? i got nothing else to wear. Anyway, it was a lovely game that ended up with a lot of goals. I can tell that my defense has picked up, although i got tired easily, but i did my best and it was good enough to let the goals pile up for our team. We won the first leg 6-1 and lost the second leg 5-3. To cut the story short i ended up straining my leg muscles. And i felt it just this morning. Back to yesterdays story when we were about to go home, me and my friend decided to hang out in our friends house within our village. We had a healthy "Man talk". Experiences, stories, with some cigarettes. And upon listening to everything we shared, failed relationships, successful relationships, basically our ups and downs. I came back to the phrase "The right place at the right time". Everything that happens is the Right place and the right time. Theres no wrong place, unless you end up getting killed between a gunfight, but its all about Experiences, experiences makes it all right, experiences makes it all fine. Whether you end up sobbing or drinking a beer over it its a lesson learned. Thats why its inevitable, thats why its called fate, its how life goes. A flick of a coin like my friend says, you dont know whether its heads or tails but you know its either of the two. Now i dont know where im going with all this but Real Madrid should win some games. Heh... Sooner or later its all going to end your way... or my way...

Now, are you going my way?...

Is this for real? tell me im not dreaming...

i'm back! well at last i finished my baby thesis, the program, documentations, defense, everything... and to cut the long story short, it was all good, we passed!! and that means that the lowest grade that i can get is 90. anyway that was yesterdays story.

i just woke up from rest, today will be the start of "the rest of my life." and to jump it off is two capsules of hydroxycut hehe. what is hydroxycut? dietary supplements... lost 2 lbs from it so far :D.

Now for this weeks news, sports news that is... :).

Jose Antonio Camacho stepped down as Real Madrid manager and is replaced by his deputy Mariano Garcia Remon.

Now for my opinion: how can they have solid performance if they cant keep up with coaches? how can they polish the plays with different coaches every year? or every month? i dunno but Real has to get up from the slump theyre in right now.

thats all... the title has nothing to do with the content... its something else ;)

Its all about Politics

Son: Dad, I have a special report for school. Can I ask you a question?

Dad: Sure son, what's the question?

Son: What is politics?

Dad: Well son, let's take our home for example. I am the wage earner, so
let's call me the management. Your mother is the administrator of the
money, so let's call her the government. We take care of you and your
needs, so let's call you the people. We'll call the maid the working class
and your baby brother the future. Understand?

Son: I'm not really sure dad, I'll have to think about it.

That night, the boy is awakened by his baby brother's crying, so he went
to see what was wrong. Discovering that the baby had a heavily soiled
nappy, the boy went to his parent's room and found his mother fast asleep.
He than went to the maid's room, where, peeking through the keyhole, he saw
his father in bed with the maid. The boy's knocking went totally unheard.
The boy went back to his room and went to sleep.

The next morning...

Son: Dad, I think I understand politics.

Dad: That's great son, explain it to me in your own words.

Son: While the management is screwing the working class, the government
is
fast asleep, the people are being completely ignored and the future is full
of shit.

Full Circle

it has always been like this
from here to there...
in anyway... it turns into bliss...

as i have thought that i am well-rounded
talents and skills i am surrounded
it has always been like this

i might not be good at all
but i think im average... lets start a poll
it has always been like this

theres one thing missing
all that hugging and kissing...
sad to think but...
i have always been like this...

theres one thing missing
the love i have waited...
is not here to complete my circle...

sad to think...
i have always been like this...

Slow Day Can It End Like Right Now?

i didnt go to class today... i just slept and took my well deserved rest... theres no quizzes today, just this linggo ng wika presentation all day... so theres nothing to do... i just took the day off...

thesis, i need to finish this thesis, a music database program, plus a manual i just remembered that september 18 will be our day of defense. im planning to start everything tomorrow, and thats final... start and finish everything and i mean everything tomorrow.

im supposed to play football today, such a lovely day for the game, but im knackered, slept late last night and damn tired. and i dont want to show in school just for the game, if i was an asshole i would hehehe knowing my profs knows me well i wouldnt show up... ill play next week :D ill just visit the gym later...

Fall to Pieces by "Velvet Revolver"

It's been a long year
Since you've been gone
I've been alone here
I've grown old
I fall to pieces, I'm falling
Fell to pieces and I'm still falling

Every time I'm falling down
All alone I fall to pieces

I keep a journal of memories
I'm feeling lonely, I can't breathe
I fall to pieces, I'm falling
Fell to pieces and I'm still falling

All the years I've tried
With more to go
Will the memories die
I'm waiting
Will I find you
Can I find you
We're falling down
I'm falling

a long title for a short song about you who messed everything

i wrote this for you
but theres nothing more to say
im lying
and im dying
save me
im drowning

im bloated and blue
and theres nothing more to say
leave me wondering...

by the way...

nothing...

Jack In... Its Been A While...

Well its been a while since i wrote something here... my tests are done so expect me to post a lot again...

the past week were hectic and damn straight stressful... ive been doing a lot of studying, cramming, projects, and that sort of stuff... school stuff... another thing that kept me busy was soccerpulse.com. these dudes are the best, its a whole new soccer world there, from legends to a prediction league that they thought of. anyway their site is getting bigger as i post, and i got through the cut to be in the news crew. id be posting news to cover soccerpulse.com. aint that great?

i have been doing a lot yesterday too, i went with my pop to wind up in the sauna, then after that a soothing sweedish massage. by the time i got home, i borrowed dvd's from my brother to keep me busy. these are some of the movies i watched yesterday.

Monty Python and the Holy Grail (1975)


this movie is sheer class... a spoof of the arthurian tale the quest for the holy grail. i loved the part when the knights who say "ni" appeared... this movie is quite a classic, but a must watch.
rottentomatoes.com rated this movie 93% fresh!

Monty Python's Life of Brian (1979)


better than the holy grail... hilarious movie about brian. the movies timeframe was during the time of Jesus, so you know what the topic is. just "always look at the bright side of life... *whistle*.
rottentomatoes.com rated this movie 97% fresh!!!

i might look for more monty python dvd's. he is a comic genius! anyway thatll be it... cherrio, toodeloo... and NI!!!!

Other Monty Python Movies The Full Monty and The Meaning of Life

How to make a marco

How to make a marco
Ingredients:
1 part friendliness
5 parts courage
3 parts energy
Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Add lovability to taste! Do not overindulge!

"The Brillant Dance" by Dashboard Confessional

So this is odd,
the painful realization that has all gone wrong.
And nobody cares at all,
and nobody cares at all.
So you buried all your lover's clothes
and burned the letters lover wrote,
but it doesn't make it any better.
Does it make it any better?
And the plaster dented from your fist
in the hall where you had your first kiss
reminds you that the memories will fade.
So this is strange,
our sidestepping has come to be a brilliant dance
where nobody leads at all,
where nobody leads at all.
And the picture frames are facing down
and the ringing from this empty sound
is deafening and keeping you from sleep.
And breathing is a foreign task
and thinking's just too much to ask
and you're measuring your minutes by a clock that's blinking eights.
This is incredible.
Starving, insatiable,
yes, this is love for the first time.
Well you'd like to think that you were invincible.
Yeah, well weren't we all once before we felt loss for the first time?
Well this is the last time.
This is the last time.
This is the last time.

EURO 2004 Finals

the set is staged, the players are ready... its time to know who is the best in europe... and come july 4th portugal and greece will battle it out in lisbon.

so far heres the recap... portugal, after their 2-1 loss with the greeks came out, changing their tactics, they won every single match eliminating england and holland.

and as for the greeks... after coming out of the group stage knocking out spain... they stunned czech republic last night with a 1-0 goal by traianos dellas during extended time.

thats a short recap... and as for the favorites (spain, italy, france, england, holland, czech...) better luck next time...

Buried Myself Alive by The Used

You almost always pick the best times
To drop the worst lines
You almost made me cry again this time
Another false alarm
Red flashing lights
Well this time I'm not going to watch myself die
I think I made it a game to play your game
And let myself cry
I buried myself alive on the inside
So I could shut you out
And let you go away for a long time

I guess it's ok I puked the day away
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way
And if you want me back
You're gonna have to ask
Nicer than that

I think the chain broke away
And I felt it the day that I had my own time
I took advantage of myself and felt fine
But it was worth the night
I caught an early flight and I made it home

With my foot on your neck
I finally have you
Right where I want you

Unfinished

you didnt say anything
anything in particular
that you have moved on

you left me hanging there
dangling along the air
nothing left for me and i

shot myself on the head
and then im lying dead on my bed
just trying to get my mind
off of you

you couldve said something girl
i know i called you before
something messed up my mind

why are you hiding there
im just standing here bare
you stripped me my pride and i

shot myself on my bed
and then im lying bleeding on my head
just trying to get my mind
off of you

i have wasted
my time
just to keep it alive
i have wasted
my soul
just to love you more
i have wasted
my life
asking you to be my wife
i have wasted
have wasted
everything i built

just for you...

and i...

shot myself on the head
and then im lying dead on my bed
just trying to get my mind
off of you

shot myself on my bed
and then im lying bleeding on my head
just trying to get my mind
off of you

you couldve saved me...
but its too late...

apology, maybe

why are you hiding girl
why do you have to make everything blur
anything bad i did that occured
if i did anything tell me girl

why do you have to be obvious
at least tell me, so i wouldnt be curious
alone and oblivious
unaware and keeping me away of anything glorious

hate me, you made me
the dreamer i am, you made me
forsake me, shake me
cant take this away, you made me

why do you have to be obvious
at least tell me, so i wouldnt be curious
alone and oblivious
unaware and keeping me away of anything glorious

hate me, you made me
the dreamer i am, you made me
forsake me, shake me
cant take this away, you made me

alright, sorry for what i did
if theres anything, or i might have offended you
thats it, this is my final bid
i told you im sorry thats it
whats next? come out, and open that lid
talk to me, dont leave me blue
i feel like a piece of shit
i come clean, im just sorry for what i did
if theres anything i did...

... EXACTLY!!! ...

Morpheus


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hehe morpheus? matrix?
god of dreams? dreamer? what a coincidence :D

So Impossible by: Dashboard Confessional

So she says
"Everyone's going to the party,
won't you come if I come
with a friend for your friend?
I'd be so pleased to see you
out of the classroom wearing the smile that I'll bring you.
I was hoping to learn a few things like..
Do you do you like dishing the dirt
on the whole class or
talking the big smack or
playing the fool or
wearing all of the latest fashions
or bucking the new trends
wearing your old threads or
if you like coffee in the evening
These are a few things that I'd like to know
that I'd like to know"

So I say...
"I've been scheduled to work but I'll call in
and my friend isn't busy
he'd be happy to join me
and maybe my friend
and your friend
will hit it off or maybe we will?"

I'm dying to know
do you do you like dreaming of things
so impossible or only the practical
or ever the wild
or waiting through all your bad bad days
just to end them with
someone you care about
and do you like making out
and long drives and brown eyes
and guys that just
don't quite fit in
yeah do you like them
So yes, I'll see you there.

bring me to where you are

its been months since your gone girl
and i know what we had, its special girl
a thrilling ride, you had my world whirll...
still cant believe your gone girl

still dreaming, of you not leaving
hold me, carry me, bring me to where you are
im screaming, shivering,
im alone in the cold girl...
bring me to where you are

im missing you
more than a man could be missing you
hold me, once again let me kiss you
embrace you, spend time...
alone with you...

still dreaming, of you not leaving
hold me, carry me, bring me to where you are
im screaming, shivering,
im alone in the cold girl...
bring me to where you are

i still remember that kiss
i know, i felt bliss
that was before...
once again let me hold you at least
im down on my knees, and beggin you please...

baby girl im dreaming, of you not leaving
hold me, carry me, bring me to where you are
im screaming, shivering,
im alone in the cold girl...

...bring me to where you are...

its been months since your gone girl...