Unconsciously

unconsciously a tear dropped, unconsciously
as i hold my head up high i prayed
no more of this, no more pain i plea
found myself in a typical situation, let me flee
more of this ill force myself to bleed

unconsciously i hold my head weeping, unconsciously
secrets known, i wish that was never been told
give me back my pride i wished i hold
shouldve done what i can, shouldve been bold
now im left all alone in the cold

unconsciously, i fell down unconsciously
had my last glimpse of reality before i fell out of consciousness
i had to end it, couldnt handle more of this loneliness
should i pretend to be happy? i choose to go blind
no more of this ill just run away and hide

unconsciously, i cried...
unconsciously, i wept...
unconsciously, i had to end it...
deep down inside...
i had to die...
unconsciously...

Poetic Ramblings #2

Stress... she's a killer
and inch by inch i start to feel her
creeping, leering, she starts to peel
and every moment i start to feel
hear me, i beg you please
do me a favor and put me at ease
i pray that the madness turn into peace
before i start to fall piece by piece
look at them, listen
they say value life
while they sell vice
one by one they start to fall
minute after minute all we can do is stall
we have time my friend
but it is stolen
just like what happened to our brothers that have fallen
hold back brother, dont go with them
let me be the one that remains swollen
close your eyes, close them tight
i fought the fight and lost my right
words are not to be shaken
but the man remains bruised while awakened
sleep, close your eyes dont wake
let me do it until it quakes
until the ground shakes
until the glass breaks
ill do our fight until silence breaks
do your job, reap your rewards
leave it to the minor who is still at guard
oh yes, stress is a killer
the reaper, ill soon feel her
i need more time, but again its stolen
soon ill depart and join the fallen
take over brother, take my post
feel the pain and show it to our host
hold the weapon, then stab it to their hearts
let them know what we are feeling
until they stop the killing
then we will stop chilling
we are now one...

Poetic Ramblings #1

once more i scribble
few more hours before i wake
to dance once with someone else's music
the one i ought to not
but who am i to disrespect
they ought for me to give them one
just a man without a sword
prepared to battle unarmed
the unpassive when supposed to be the opposite
who rides the waves and not to fight
remains standed when everyone else is attacking
remains at ease when all is stiff
they mold me to be unmolded
for once i am awakened
the truth about it all, be educated
i write with my right
but not what they believe is right
i hold only my right
with full might, but to be silenced once more
look at them, i pity them, i pity myself
im the only one shouting when everyone else is silenced
and in my soltitude i find peace
behind my four walls i beg peace
the lover, the dreamer i sleep
but again to be awakened by the cries
the cries of my brothers
your brothers who needs the light
the light in the dark
the fire in the cold
the dreams of the asleep
awake, arise, do your right
stand by me, lets fight...