Gutted and Disgusted: Real Madrid

We can blame anyone after a loss. But can we be that any worse? From a prominent figure in European Football to the worlds current laughing stock? From the team to beat now the team that's beat?

What happened to our wonderful games from the day of Di Stefano and Puskas? What happened to the only team that held a unique European CL Cup? Why are we held down to 29 European cups and 9 domestic cups? What is happening to "The" Real Madrid?

Some people blame it on managerial errors, some on our so-called Galacticos, and lately some blame it on the referees.

We do have some managerial problems since our President focuses more on gaining income than winning. Real Madrid also sacks and buys coaches like changing our underwear. Selling one of our best strikers for an unproven one is still baffling. And playing 5 new players simultaneously on the field just doesnt do the trick.

Our so-called Galacticos are aging, and simple as that, it creates problems on our lineup. We rely on them game in and game out, and given that theyre 30 years old and more just adds insult to the injury. Zidane is missing when our midfielders are running like headless chickens. He along with Baptista, Ramos, and maybe Helguerra will miss the next match against Bilbao due to injuries and suspensions. What happens to our defense now? Are we going to go with Paco Pavon and Mejia or should we play our ever priceless Jonathan Woodgate.

The referee, well its pretty self-explanatory. Theyre screwing us 3 ways till Sunday. Calling a foul and then counting a goal. Giving a point when the ball obviously never passed behind the line. And finally disallowing a goal when its clearly not offside.

We have lost 3-2 against Celta, 3-0 against Lyon, and 1-0 against Espanyol. What should we expect on the Bilbao match since we're clearly depleted and shorthanded. Who will step up? Will anyone step up, and rise for the occasion? Will we ever get our 30th and our 10th? Will Luxa stay and live up to his promise that he'll win all competitions?

So many questions are being asked here, its still the start, and its still a long way to go. The season has just began and we just woke up in the bad side of the bed. I myself still believes that everything will be alright and like a great Madridista once said. "Even if were in the segunda, i'll still bleed white"

Songs that plays along my head

Isnt it disdainful and curious
That both of us thinks we know everything

We both have pains
we both have eyes
One in the same
Two of a kind
and Neither of us cant see

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Is that the way we stand
Were you lying all the time
Was it just a game to you

But I’m in so deep
You know I’m such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger

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Sometimes I can’t move my feet it seems
As if I’m stuck in the ground somehow like a tree
As if I can’t even breathe
Oh, and my screams come whispering out

As if nobody can even see me
Like a ghost, sometimes I can’t see myself
Sometimes, then again, oh

If I were a king
If I had everything
If I had you and I could give you your dreams
If I were giant-sized, on top of it all
Then tell me what in the world would I sing for
If I had it all

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Here in your arms where the world is impossibly still
With a million dreams to fulfill
And a matter of moments until the dancing ends
Here in your arms when everything seems to be clear
Not a solitary thing would I fear
Except when this moment comes near the dancing's end

Dave Matthews - Oh

The world is blowing up
The world is caving in
The world has lost her way again
But you are here with me
But you are here with me
Makes it ok

I hear you still talk to me
As if you're sitting in that dusty chair
Makes the hours easier to bear
I know despite the years alone
I'll always listen to you sing your sweet song
And if it's all the same to you

I love you oh so well
Like a kid loves candy and fresh snow
I love you oh so well
Enough to fill up heaven overflow and fill hell
Love you oh so well

And it's cold and darkness falls
It's as if you're in the next room so alive
I could swear I hear you singing to me

I love you oh so well
Like a kid loves candy and fresh snow
I love you oh so well
Enough to fill up heaven overflow and fill hell

The world is blowing up
The world is caving in
The world has lost her way again
But you are here with me
But you are here with me
Makes it ok

Oh girl you're singing to me still
I love you oh so well
Like a kid loves candy and fresh snow
I love you oh so well
Enough to fill up heaven overflow and fill hell
Love you oh so well

The Untitled VI

i played until the time was done
i lived until my days are gone
no regrets to be felt since everything was done
eventhough by this time you're gone

i chose not to be affected
i chose not to succumb to my feelings
i chose to wear this mask
to fathom my remaining pride

hapiness in avoiding certain songs
joy in avoiding certain sights
but lies ran through my veins
i just cant help that im not there with you

i wont let go...
thats my heart speaking
i should let go...
so says my brain...

im weak, dont speak
let this be the end of it...